I beg you: forgive me! I haven’t blogged in days.
2,401 words | Posted on January 4th, 2004
Scott was 18.28 years old when he wrote this!
Filed under: General
Wow, I have so many things to talk about! But it’s so late already. /sigh/ I wish I had started typing this blog earlier. As it is, I’m starting this blog at 1:24am Saturday night.. err.. Sunday moring. Anyhow, I have a lot of topics to cover and won’t bother mentioning them in the prologue so I’ll just jump right in by asking what you think of the new layout? I thought the old one was starting to look immature. However when I take a second glance at my new banner, I guess I can’t really say that my new one accomplishes the “mature scott” look. Either way, this is my site, enjoy it, and as always, tell me what I can do to make it a better place. All right, here we go!
I thank “The Black Album” for writing a crappy rap song to me! That’s right, the guy wrote a rap song about AimPoo! The original is on the quotes page, but I’ll clean it up and spell it normally for you in this paragraph. Ok, here we go: “yo I made a rhyme for your site. yo aimpoo what’s the cracks? I’m slangin’ the leets but now 3chars got hacked I use the prog poo when I sleep, that’s right I sleep and get them leets I think that’s neat thanks thanks for makin aimpoo also da name is coo kus I love da poo I head them for breakfast with my fruit loops.” So, what do you think? Yeah well, it certainly made me smile when I read it. Who knows? Maybe it’ll be a big song some day.
What is going on with AimPoo anyway? Well, I wanted to make it go open source a week ago. However, the sourcecode is on my work computer and at the moment my work computer is, well, at work. I will get it back monday night and hopefully have some time to polish up the code and release it sometime around monday or tuesday. If you want the source code to AimPoo, push me to do it! I need motivation. However, try not to be annoying. That just makes me want to do these sort of things even less. I think I’m going to show the source code of all the DLLs and executables ecept for the core aimpoo.exe. I would like to spend at least one more day fixing some small bugs 
and adding list support (for passwords, screen names, servers, and ports) In case you’ve been living in a coma the last few days, I’ve uploaded the keygen for aimpoo in the downloads folder. I’m sick and tired of unlocking peoples’ crappy programs. However, I think I’ll appeal to the random googler by saying things like you can download your aimpoo crack here or free aimpoo hack or aimpoo keygen or aimpoo serial generator or something like that. Yeah, well, it’s up and it’s free. Have fun.
Scott! We want your picture! Wow, did I just speak in the second person? Humm, I guess so, in a plural form. I’d best get to the point before I hurt myself. I recently uploaded a silly picture of me (my back) using a computer on a yellow table with childish things all around me (crayons, 1337 barney, etc) and I started to realize how stupid of an image it was creating for myself since this is the only picture most people have ever seen of me beside that one on my about page that shows me in China over a year ago. I should get a semi-decent picture of myself and use it somewhere on this website so I both have some control over what people think I am like and so it shuts up all the people who want to see my picture. Although, I will admit, I’d do it mostly for the second reason. That’s right! It’s my #1 suggestion I get about the site via email. “we need pictures of you!”. The problem is, no one ever takes my picture. I don’t go places with friends (which is where most people I know have their pics taken) and when I’m with my family, I’m the only one who knows how to use the digital camera. (sad, but true). Ahh /sigh/ how strange how strange. I guess I’ll sit back and wait for an oppurtune moment.
What about them there LCD thingie mo bobbers? Well, I just ordered a few more. For those of you who don’t know what I’m talking about, check out here and here. I think I’ve got the wiring down to the most effecient way (electrically and conveniently) and it’s pretty close to being a “finished prototype”. I’m stocking up some LCDs and going to pop one of them fully assembled on ebay just to see what kind of action I get. Will I get people from my website bidding? Will I get friends bidding? Will random ebayers bid? How strange! I don’t think I’ll sell LCDs for a while though. This ebay thing would just be to see what happens. So don’t “not bid” on it thinking “oh I’ll just buy one from scott in a few days” ^_-
I’ve been thinking lately about people around people. I think it was when I saw how two [of the] girls [from new york that came and visited me last week) got along that I started thinking about it. These two girls were amazingly close in my eyes. I'm sure it's nothing special by any means to anyone else. However, I could tell that they knew eachother well and seemed to talk effortlessly. They seemed to enjoy talking to eachother. I'd imagine they share a lot with eachother. The reason it made such a big impact on me was because the whole thing seemed so foreign. I know it's normal and almost everyone does something along those lines, but for me, I don't really have (or have had for a long time) a really close friend... I'm not complaining, I mean, hey, I'm fine. But it was just something about it that seemed strange to me. I don't like talking to other people really. Lots of people think I do, because I don't shut up, but that's out of nervousness. I can't think of one person [my age] that I’d feel comfortable talking and/or being with ^_^; It’s very strange the more I think about it. Am I becoming the socially reclusive hermit that we all know about? [insert twilight zone music here]
greeaahhhh this is crazy! I haven’t blogged in ages. I started to get a sick to my stomach feeling when I was about to come to blog. It repeated every time I hovered my cursor over the “add blog” button in my browser. I don’t know why. I think it was because originally, I missed a day or 
two of blogging and felt bad about it. Thus, in my feelingbadness, I didn’t want to blog. This kept on happening, and it only got worse. I equate it with the “eww” feeling you get when you start a procrastinated homework assignment. It’d be one thing if it’s on time. But doing it late? yuk. That’s my excuse ^_^
AIM PEOPLE ARE ANNOYING! Well, ok, not all of them.. but a lot of them are! You wouldn’t believe how many 100s of IMs a day I get from really stupid people. Now, if you’re reading this site, I can assure you that you are not one of the “stupid people” I’m referring to. They come up, ask the dumbest questions, then I anser them, and they can’t understand my answer, so I get annoyed and don’t respond, and they start cussing me out and warning me. Give, me, a, freaking, break! Sheesh! Then again, by getting frustrated with these people, I’m letting them “win”, so I’d best stop right now. If you’re wondering why I keep using this same image, it’s because I think it’s wonderful! I love the colors and the contrast and the drawing style. It plays on the promo image from the [crappy] movie KillBill. While I’m here, why don’t I like it? It has horrible Japanese references, very bad action, not-well-made sword fights, the visual styles*, the dialogues, the aweful use of 70s style music durring fighting scenes, the flow of the plot so far, I mean it’s just… sheesh… I don’t know why it was hyped. Do people here really thirst for foreign things so much that when a little taste of something that hints out of the American bubble is created, it’s admired? When I astricised visual styles, I mean that a lot of the movie is normal live action, but some of it is black and white, and some of it is animated. Why? The animated makes it able to do very bad violence w/o special effects and I’d imagine it’s a lot cheaper. The black and white was done durring some of the fighting scenes so they wouldn’t be too voilend and earn the movie a nc17 rating instead of r (which was still overrated). I guess after spending time around some of the asian [especially Japanese live-action] cinematography, violence in movies in america seems so childlike. Oh heck while we’re here, I think it’s really interesting how high they hold Kissing in Korea and it’s rarely rarely ever seen in movies in plain view. Lots of movies in 
Korea will show kissing hidden behind flowers, or the back of someone’s head or something. Bottom line though, it’s something held really highly over there. Now, today I just saw the PeterPan movie. (don’t ask) They had 12 year old boy/girls kissing in full view even with a little string of spit falling off. What the heck is that all about? Ehh, sheesh
I can never finish anything! It’s true. Look at aimpoo. Look at my old sites. Look at this site dangit! Look at the blog reader. Look at the lcd things. Look how much gcc compilable C programming I’ve learned. Look how little time I spend on my [stupid] projects because I’m busy spending time on [even stupider] new ones! Do I feel a lack of direction in my life? Yeah. Can it be explained? Yeah. I don’t finish anything. Can it be defined? Yeah. Eighteen year old teenager -_-
LAE continues to be intersting. LAE is the screen name of John. Yes, LAE used to be my screen name, but I traded it w/ someone for website hosting, and it was stolen the very day I gave it to him. Come to find out one of the admins at the hosting company was doing lots of stupid things. Beside using peoples’ computers when he wasn’t supposed to and signing on their IM accounts and talking to random people, he decided that he’d have some fun and impersonate ME when people asked for software keys, explaining that he’d trade homosexual images for unlocking numbers. Pretty sad, huh? Yeah, well, if you’re really bored, one of the conversations where he pretended to be me is located here in case you’re interested. Oh yeah, the images have been removed (thank goodness) but there is some strong languages and possibly sexual references in that document, so know that before you go there. Yeah so, heck, I already gave away LAE so I didn’t really care to have it back. After LAE got fired for what he had done, I decided that there was no reason that we couldn’t be friends (at least for the pure irony of it). However, my IMs were met with lots of soft light converstaion intertwined with suprratic warnings and temporary blockings. It was very strange talking to him again. He seems so… immature? I don’t know. If you’re reading this and you are “mister john”, then know I forgave you long ago for what you did aginst me and hold nothing on you and am sorry if the whole thing worked out in a negative way. =o)
hacker wannabes Wow, I’ve gotten at least a dozen people in the last month claim to be “elite hackers” then upon a minute of talking with me they seem to break down and cry/confess they haven’t a clue about anything and then start begging me to train them and teach them “hacking” stuff. I think it’s strange that people see me and automatically think that I know anything about hacking. I mean, I don’t claim to hack. I don’t obviously hack things. I never say bold statements about what I have hacked or what I am hacking. People assume too much. Plus, even if I were some hacker or some sort, I would never admit it. In fact, I’d publicly denouce it. Maybe much like I’m doing now? Anyway, I thought this pattern was a little funny, so if you’re thinking of asking, don’t bother. If you’re really interested, I’ll let you know that I’m currently working with a person who’s incredibly intelligent and in a stage of the person’s life where s/he retains information like a sponge. Awesome person to work with, and I’m already busy. Thanks anyway though ^_-
What’s this, a 2428 word blog? /sigh/ It’s 2:11 and I think I’d best be off. Goodnight everyone. It’s nice to talk to you all again. Forgive me for my sparce and empty posts the last few weeks. My life has been crazy. Also, you can be sure to not that I cut-off early tonight! I am very tired and will finish up writing other things tomorrow or some day really soon. comment-it-up! g’night.
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23 Responses to “I beg you: forgive me! I haven’t blogged in days.”
| Hope wrote the following at 02:07:39 PM on December 31st, 2003 |
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Don’t worry folks, we are leaving Thursday morning and Scott can be yours again |
| Nick wrote the following at 12:36:15 PM on December 31st, 2003 |
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i think they’re still there, but they’re just friends. scott, make some time for your admiring public whydontcha? |
| Mitchell wrote the following at 12:43:49 AM on December 31st, 2003 |
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Just wondering… are you still being held captive? |
| update wrote the following at 12:43:48 AM on December 31st, 2003 |
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scott its been about 20 five billion thousand million years since you have updated last! |
| Munin wrote the following at 01:54:17 PM on December 30th, 2003 |
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Calm down peoples… it’s strictly platonic. |
| Eric wrote the following at 06:34:38 PM on December 29th, 2003 |
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Bout time you got some action |
| Kei wrote the following at 01:44:17 AM on December 29th, 2003 |
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none of them are asian are they? you better be saving up for me when we meet. you won’t know me, but we will meet! i will make sure of it ^^ Im like pokey. Im sweet, Im Japanese, and dernit, you want me ^.~ |
| Nick wrote the following at 11:11:31 PM on December 28th, 2003 |
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trying My Sassy Girl out on the girls huh? tell me what they think of it, i wonder if they’ll like it as much as us… |
| Nick wrote the following at 10:52:32 PM on December 28th, 2003 |
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ok bobby, chill with the forward comments |
| malignant-thoughts wrote the following at 10:43:22 PM on December 28th, 2003 |
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I think you girls should show him a little bit more about girls, he has no expirence you know |
| Hope wrote the following at 10:28:45 PM on December 28th, 2003 |
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Oh…he hasn’t |
| malignant-thoughts wrote the following at 10:25:45 PM on December 28th, 2003 |
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well scott dont miss any opertunities here |
| Nick wrote the following at 10:00:27 PM on December 28th, 2003 |
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nice girls…but i don’t think this is the kind of situation we’re imagining for scott, these girls are his friends from out of state, or so i’ve gathered. |
| malignant-thoughts wrote the following at 09:55:39 PM on December 28th, 2003 |
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three girls you lucky man |
| Sammi aka Smooch wrote the following at 09:29:50 PM on December 28th, 2003 |
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I can assure you…. I am 100% female! And yes, it’s short for Samantha. |
| Nick wrote the following at 09:28:34 PM on December 28th, 2003 |
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its short for samantha im sure… COM ENT: |
| Nick wrote the following at 09:16:12 PM on December 28th, 2003 |
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you know, i think scott might be making this up…to add a little flavor to his blog. savvy? |
| Nick wrote the following at 09:15:37 PM on December 28th, 2003 |
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i like the names tho, cute names |
| Nick wrote the following at 09:15:03 PM on December 28th, 2003 |
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how do you know these people, and why are you broadcasting this to the world? its nice to know there are girls in your room, but it shouldn’t be anything that spectacular…or will it? |
| Nick wrote the following at 09:13:32 PM on December 28th, 2003 |
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i want pics!! |
| Anonymous wrote the following at 09:03:45 PM on December 28th, 2003 |
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HOPE IS A BOY!!! |
| FUCKOFFSCOTT wrote the following at 04:49:53 AM on June 29th, 2004 |
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DAMNIT SCOTT u ******* ha ha i wanted to download aimpoo now i cant even find it u mofo i wanted to hack people DAMNIT! |
| Kei wrote the following at 02:27:01 AM on January 4th, 2004 |
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Scott I want a picture of you to put in my purse wallet n show it to people when they ask me if I have a boyfriend ^^ a cold lie it is, but it brings a warm smile to my face *^______^* |