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is this a better title?
Posted by
Scott November 20th, 2003 | 5,253 words | 7 Comments »


Scott was 18.16 years old when he wrote this!

For the person (I forgot who it was) who told me that I need to think of using better titles for my inidividual blog postings, this one’s for you. =op I thought yesterday’s blog title was very creative and descriptive, with a slight aftertaste of crudeness.

/sigh/ Today was going well, until nothing happened, then it went downhill? Well, I guess I’d best start off in the beginning. I woke up thismorning and my alarm clock hadn’t gone off for some reason… I don’t know if it literally didn’t go off, or if it did go off, but I got off the floor and turned it off and went back to sleep without remembering it. (one heck of a runon sentence). For waking up so late, I was able to arrive at school on time. I took a shower and walked out the door in 5 minutes. I arrived at school early, suprisingly. To my delight (I hadn’t gotten much sleep last night) my first class professor (who is normally incredibly boring) was somewhat animated today. I normally have to fight sleep in that class, but this morning, I did all right. The other classes were good. I got a 100% on a math test. Ok, so I lied. It was a 97% but he added 3 extra percent because on the last test I ‘missed’ a question that I still think is right and took it to him. He gave me some points to play with =o) I think I may have mentioned the exact problem in an earlier blog, so all’s good. At lunch, I met and spoke with Jon L for quite some time. I think I’m going to take my notebook to school over this two and a half hour lunch break, it’d sure make it nicer. Then again, I’m practicing this social interaction thing, and it’s working pretty well. Now, I feel somewhat comfortable talking to one or two people at a time =o) Small groups though are still like.. whoa… get me out of this place… must… have… computer… ::blink::… pool! Ok, new paragraph, before I go off on another tangent.

Oh yes, the bad thing, what was the bad thing Scott? Well, it sounds really stupid. No… it IS really stupid. In fact, I’m not going to even say what it is it’s that dumb. But for some reason, I don’t know why… it really hit me in the gut. Something small someone said to me instantly got to me.. You know that feeling when you walk in a class and realize you didn’t study for a test? Yeah, that feeling. Yuck! That’s the feeling I got when I hears this line from this person. It really made me go ahhck! It’s been ringing in my ears ever since. /shrug/ I’m trying to touch the topic without giving it away, but I can’t really. All I can say is that the person was very kind and nice and had no idea he/she said anything that would have affected me, however the aftereffects left me feeling awkward, sad, and lonely. Can you believe it? Lonely in my own room. Jezz, the nerve of these people ^_^ Ok, I’m rambeling again. It’s the late night caffeine, can you tell? I try to keep somewhat orderly and structured blogs but tonight… pfft… whatever.

I need to talk (again) about this blog! Lots of people are getting the total wrong idea of what this is and what this is for. I’ll be clear. I write this blog purely for myself. I love being able to look back on things I’ve drawn, created, or written years ago. I’m trying to keep an accurate and easialy archivable web log (weblog in short is blog) and am choosing HTML as the favored way to do it. Why? It’s easy to add to, easy to edit, easy to look back on, easy to store, and it can hold pictures and special text formatting! Cool stuff, ‘eh?

SO! for those of you who are mean to me for putting my blog on my website… You need to realize what this is here for and realize how (it doesn’t) affect you =o) If this blog irritates you so much, or my political, religous, ethical, or social views conflict with you to the point where you can’t control yourself, you really should refrain from reading my blogs in the first place! I love getting email from people who are kind. I love getting email from people who may be criticizing, but honest and genuine. BUT PLEASE! SPARE ME FROM THE RANDOM FRUSTRATED HATE EMAILS! No, I will not find you a girlfriend. No, I will not teach you linux. No, I will not make you a new layout. No, I will not debug your php pages. No, I will not act as a replacement for google… and no, I will not fix your computer. Nice emails are welcome and appreciated. But spare me from the junk, mmk?

tidbit: FOX news called my house today. They wanted to do an interview with me tomorrow afternoon getting a 1 on 1 conversation with the creator of AimPoo! I declined though. I was going to have lunch with my mom tomorrow afternoon.

yes, that was a joke, lighten up people, jeez, I’m tellin’ ya.

I REALLY NEED ADVICE AND COMMENTS ON AN IDEA FOR A NEW PIECE OF SOFTWARE I’M THINKING OF WRITING! Here’s where you come in. Please contact me via email or the form on this website or IM or the comments page. Tell me what you think of this idea. You will, won’t you? Yeah, I know you will. I love you. Ok, so, what is this? First of all, this is NOT a hacking program =o) This is a free, clear, legal, and non-shadey application anyone can download and use. I haven’t figured out the details of how it’s going to work, but my idea is like this. Once installed, this little program runs 24/7 while your computer is on. It’s one of those little icons in windows in the system tray (that area on the bottom right by the clock). This program would have a plethera of options you could work with, but in my example I’m going to give some simple settings, but realize all numbers and times I use will be changable…

Every 4 hours, this little program checks the CPU usage and when it gets a quiet time where no one is trying to use the computer strenuously, it goes online and downloads some webpages. The webpages it downloads are webpages you tell it to look at. The webpages are your favorite blogs! The program will copare it to the last viewed version of the website, and if it’s more than 30% different, it popps up a little reminder and says “hey! this page has changed!” and you can either view it then, or have it remind you later. If you’re like me you probably have 10 or 15 blogs you’d love to read, but it’s too tedios to check them every few hours of every day! This way, the blogchecker can do all of that work for you! Hey, it might not be a hit. Hey, people might not like it. But I’m tellin’ you something: I would love a program like this! To be able to casually use my computer and be alerted when one of my friends updates their blogs? Dang! I waste a lot of mine time at night clicking on friends’ blogs trying to figure out if I read the latest posts or not. Like I said, give me ANY thoughts relating to this idea. I might wake up tomorrow and be like “what a stupid ida”, so, seriously, I’m open to anything =o)

Ok, well, I’d best be off… It was nice continuing our one way conversation, I hope to see you here tomorrow night. Pretty soon, you’ll be able to use the blogwatcher to determine when you need to come here! Ok, well, if I write it at least. Goodnight ^_-



my blog has diarrhea
Posted by
Scott November 19th, 2003 | 5,253 words | 20 Comments »


Scott was 18.15 years old when he wrote this!

Wow, I have a lot to talk about and I think I’ll just spill it all out. (hence, the title of today’s post) I don’t have much time, so I’ll have to write fast. In a nutshell, these are the things I’d like to talk about tonight. I’ll start off by making excuses, I’ll then go and defend myself, then I’ll go spill personal details about women and me (can’t miss that!), then Ill tell you what constructive I did today, then I’ll tell you the horribly descructive thing I did to someone today, then i’ll tell you about the choice I have to make, then I’ll tell you about some ideas I have, then I’ll tell you about something I want, then I’ll tell you about something I feel stupid for, then I’ll tell you something I need, then I’ll tell you something you should know. Dang, I wish blogs were 2-way communication, but they’re not. I am the one doing all the talking. Then again, there are comments, but no one ever comments anymore! more on this later. So, let’s begin, shall we?

I’d like to start off talking about the picture. I found it a few days ago while deviating and I saved it in my little goodies folder. What’s a goodies folder? Why a folder for goodies, of course! I put images I find in there, so if I don’t have a picture for a blog one day, I can reach in the folder and pull one out. And, a quick note about this picture.. that is NOT a thong he is wearing. It is traditional Japanese samurai underwear. I just wanted to make that clear. Thank you.

I heard something said about me that shocked me today. I’d like to start off and say I’m in no way mad at any of the people that caused or were affected by this issue, ok? Seriously, I completely understand, and I’m simply talking about possible things that could arise in the future, so please don’t think I’m in any way mad at you =o) So, scott, what happened? Well I was eating dinner tonight with my sister and she was talking to my mom. All the sudden she blurted something crazy out about me. Once I stopped coughing on the food I inhaled when I heard it, I was like “what?” My sister then stated clearly what she had said before. I’m trying to protect people here, so, I can’t tell details. If you need them, IM me, and I’ll see what I can do. Anyway, the bottom line was she said that I thought something that I don’t, and it’d have been bad if I did, but it really looks like I did think it because of how the events meshed together. This left my mom giving me an awkard look and me feeling really embarrassed. Depsite how untrue the statement was, Kelly seemed to firmly believe it, and the thing wasn’t very disprovable, from a lack of immediate evidence. Anyhow, the problem arose, yet again, through someone reading my blog and passing an item along a chain of people. By the time my sister said it out, it had become so distorted that it was completely wrong, but had just enough truth in it to seem valid. It was very sad to me for some reason. Not the actual thing she said, but the way she believed it, completely on secondhand evidence. I mean, wow, how many things could you mess up trying to tell other people random things from my writings? I feel I come across pretty well to anyone who reads my writings, but I strongly urge people not to discuss them with people they don’t know, because it really does mess things up badly. And if it’s in a negative sense, then it’s simple gossip, and we all know how much stories change from person to person.

The long delayed mention of Asian women. Wow, I can’t believe I’m writing this. You think it’s a little strange to read about? It’s even more awkward trying to write it. I don’t really want to, but I really do need to. I’m getting SO many people come to me saying things that just make me go “WHAT?!” They’re taking this whole thing outta whack and it’s really frustrating. So, I’d might as well clear things up. I’m sure you’ve seen me poke fun at the fact of me liking Asian women on my about page. You’ve noticed the random references and jokes I make in my blogs about the subject. You’ve most likely also read people comment about it. However, I’ll be the first to admit, I really blow it up more than it is without realizing it ^_^; I can’t think of any really clear way to say this, so I’ll just state the facts. No, I don’t “only like” Asian women. Yes, I think lots of different women of almost all cultures are very pretty. I also would never allow myself to go for someone just because of their ethnicity! I think that is so shallow. I’ve said that I think that I think lots of Asian womens’ eyes are really pretty, but I’ll have to admit, that’s as far as it goes. I know! can you believe it? How disappointing. No, I’m not going to move to Asia (not for the women, at least). Yes, most peoples’ ideas about me and Asian women are wrong. Yes, the whole thing gets blown up bigger than it is. While I’m at the subject, I’ll also mention that I’m not really looking for a girlfriend slash date or some social label of that sort. A cose friend that’s a girl would always be an awesome thing to have =o) but anything more just wouldn’t fit in my life too well right now. And, oh yeah, about the media. I watch Asian movies, yes, but I also watch Eurpoean and American movies too. I know I disappoint you. A person who’s obsessed with something is a lot more fun to gossip about ^_^ But hey, at least I hope I made it a little clearer. Feel free to contact me if you have questions, mmk?

Oh man! I did the worst thing to someone today! I feel bad now! I was working on 20 things earlier. I was up to my neck in stuff to do. Some guy IMed me asking for help -_- Very simple questions too. It started to get very frustrating. I kept closing his IM, but it kept popping up again. (stupid windows client!). No, I didn’t think to just minimize it. Anyway, he started veering-off the subject of questions about my software, and started asing very simple questions about computers that google could easialy answer. He asked “how do I format my hard drive?” So, I told him, and I even gave him the tools to do it. I answered all of his questions honestly, and didn’t lie to him about anything. I also didn’t tell him to do anything he wouldn’t have done. He simply used me to get information about formatting his hard drive. So what was the horrible thing I did? I realized he had no idea that when he formatted his hard drive, it would erase his entire computer… I just didn’t tell HIM that ^_^;;; After I gave him the tools to format his computer, he signed off line. Sure enough, he hasn’t been on since. So, yeah, I have a feeling I’m going to get some IMs from him in a few days, once he get’s his computer back up again. It’ll be interesting to see what he says. If you’re interested, I have posted our conversation on a webpage, so everyone can get a few laughs.

I got accepted into another college today. The engineering school, out in TX… I’m consitering going there. In my own mind, I’m considering it as a 30% chance. However, my parents have recently talked themselves into me going there. They’re pretty sure I’m going. This scares me. I can forsee some bad things happening, if I choose to go to the engineering school that’s here, they’re going to try to pull the plug on things. It’d be interesting to see how quickly they stop paying for my food, charge me rent, take away my transportation, internet, or do other odd things to punish me for not going to a different college ^_^; Though I can’t say anything bad, they havne’t done anything yet. It’s just… from patterns I’ve seen in the past… I see the road narrowing and pretty soon it’ll be too late to get them to turn around. I’m afraid, but the more I talk about it the more the push away from it, so that’s not constructive either. It’s not that I don’t want to go, it’s just that I know absolutely nothing about the school. I know one person who goes there, and have talked to him about it a total of a few minutes… I’m going to be flying out there soon to check it out, which will give me a little more information, but I have to admit that just seeing it with my eyes won’t give me all that much information. /sigh/ I’m worrying about this too early. I need to wait a little while and watch what develops and adjust my life accordingly.

You’ve seen my website change slowly, but what’s next? Well, I’m going to try to keep the same basic feel of this website. A lot of people have gotten used to it, and it’s a nice place to come and hang out in the familiariaty familiarity of the look, the colors, the writing style, and the cheesy humor. I will, however, be adding some more sections soon. I’d like to throw together some quick tutorials, but where will the time come from? humm… maybe if I stop writing a NOVEL of a blog every night, I could actually get some work done. jeez!

Oh yeah! I HAVE to see this movie. Guess who’s in it? Misia!!! Yeah, isn’t it cool? She also sings lots of the songs. I don’t know how good, bad, or stupid the movie is, but you know I have to download and watch it ^_^ Misia is my favorite japanese singer. She’s has an incredibly unique singing style (dare I call it rnb?) and is the sole inspiration behind the name of my old best friend Misia, who died about a year ago. CHECK OUT THE MOVIE TRAILER! The trailer is clean, btw. The movie is called dragonhead, and I need to get it…

No one cares about me anymore… Ok, so that’s not true. It got your attention though, didn’t it? What I was getting at is, no one blogs anymore =op It was nice being able to come home from school and see I had 20+ people leave comments about the previous day’s post. It sure made it easier to have inspiration for things to write about! It also gave me a very clear view about how people took the things I wrote about, and if I needed to re-state anything in the next post. Feedback is important, I don’t need it, but I really really do want it. In case you’re new to reading peoples’ blogs, or you just don’t know, It’s polite courtesy to comment every time you read one or more postings. If you read a blog once a week, post once a week. If you read a blog every two days, post every two days. If you read a blog randomly, post when you read it! It certainly does make the writer feel good =o) Just a tip, all you fellas.

a post-rant rant First of all, you can spell-check my butt. No way I’m reading this whole dang post. /sigh/ It’s past midnight, but I’ll set the post time of this blog back just a little so it still shows up as being on wednesday. It was nice talking with you all, and I’ll be sure to write tomorrow. I stil get some very kind emails from people, some I know, some I don’t, and some are anonymous. I just wanted to say thay that if you’re one of the people who sends the kind emails, I greatly appreciate it. It’s interesting to see how the smallest kindnesses make such a great impact on your day ^_^ Last tuesday, I got a smile from someone. It was so plain, simple, the person wouldn’t even recognize me if he/she were to see me again. But for something so small, it really made me feel good, and look! I remember it, more than a day and a half later =o)

So, with that, share some smiles, and go to bed. Oh yeah, and comment ^_^



must… play… pool…
Posted by
Scott November 18th, 2003 | 5,253 words | 12 Comments »


Scott was 18.15 years old when he wrote this!

somebody…
pull…
me…
away…
from…
the…
pool…
vah!

[sucked into a bottomless ravine]

I am NOT addicted.
I have complete control.
I can resist a pool offer even if the per-

brb, gonna play a few games



subtle changes, in all aspects of scott
Posted by
Scott November 17th, 2003 | 5,253 words | 136 Comments »


Scott was 18.15 years old when he wrote this!

Well I don’t have much time tonight, so I’ll see what I can do in a few minutes. You probably noticed the small changes I made to my website today. I changed the look of the top right logo to something that’s painful to look at. I also changed the left column background color to a glossy black. I think the colors blend nicely with the rest of the site, don’t you? That top left image I’m going to try to change more regularly. At the moment, it’s a closeup of the image that’s in today’s blog. I found it yesterday while deviating. I’m not sure why I’m drawn to this image. However, I think I’ll analize it.

To confirm my weirdness, I’ll write the reasons why this picture seemed cool to me the first time I saw it in the order that I thought of things. First of all, the color is awesome. I look at it and it’s just… gawwgggg it’s great. The background square zoom thing behind the main focal point that’s slightlf offset is a great touch. I then focus right in on the eyes… (hehe, my weak point) Check out the sape of that eye! You have to admit it’s awesome. The mask adds to it. I think that leather-bucled neck thing is a cross between a modern clothing style, a bandit’s mask, and a horse muzzle. What an interesting mix? Then add in that top mask and it’s greatly more interesting. And, wow, take a look at the ears. The way you can see the folds in the reflection of the light, aww it’s great. Moving down you can see the tail is nice and looks really good when it comes to the lighting. The pants need a little help, but what’re those? are those syringes in that double crossbelt? Whoa, weird… I doubt it implies narcodic drug use, but you never knoow the intentions of these ‘artists’. I think they’re defensive, and are to be thrown. Thwap! Right in someone’s neck. Anyway, take a look at that glowing thing. It looks interesting, a little animal inside, but it loses interest fast. Whoa, check out that hair? It’s curly? Is this a girl? Oh man, her shirt, it has, uhh… it’s um… it’s like… well it kinda… beside the… i mean… right… um… her neck goes… err… the x… i mean… the shadow… folding… uhh.. buhh.. duhh.. ah.. ba… it’s a girl-cat, ok? And she looks like she’s reay to kick some major butt.

Today was weird. I got sick at work X_x I woke up and went to work. I left work two hours early because I got REALLY sick. You know when you ate something you probably shouldn’t have and you can feel your stomach just churning for 10 minutes solid? That’s what I felt… and i realized… oh crap… this can’t be good. Then I started getting waves of nausea X_x. I almost left then, but I felt too sick and light headed to go. I waited for a nauesa wave to pass, then I threw my stuff in the car and raced home. I got in the door (left my stuff in the car) and ran to the bathroom and ggrrrawwww there were fireworks and flahes of light and thunder and it was a real show. I didn’t tell anyone at work I got sick though XD I didn’t want it to sound like I was making excuses /shrug/

software teaser: my new (non-aimpoo) piece of software should be done after one more hour of work. It’s a very simple program, only a single exe file. All I can tell you are these three things. It is for windows only. It is for advanced users only. It is a quick gui-front end to hand-modifying a certain configuration file that I have to do by hand EVERY time I go to work or get back home. If you’ve figured out what it is, congrats. If not, you probably wouldn’t know what it is even if I told you. No offense, you just dont have a need for it. obtw, there are other software apps that do this, but mine would be far easier, faster, cooler, and with more features.

conclusion Ok, I’m off. Despite the fact I played 12 games of yahoo pool, I had a pretty constructive and fulfilling day. (yes, I lost at pool, a lot) I normally spend this time to read other peoples’ blogs at night, but this is the first night in a long time that I feel really tied and am going to go to sleep. I guess it is almost twelve. (no spellchecking tonight folks) Ehh, who cares anyway. /yawn/ I’m outta here. Goodnight everybody =o)



a nice sunday with many events
Posted by
Scott November 16th, 2003 | 5,253 words | 6 Comments »


Scott was 18.14 years old when he wrote this!

It’s very late now, but I need to type a long blog anyawy. Here goes nothin’ I’ll start off by talking about what happened this morning. I had been running AimPoo all night for debugging / error testing purposes. I turned on the monitor to see if there were any errors and there were 2!.. I looked closer… wait… these aren’t errors… they’re hacked name notifications! =o) That’s right, I hacked 2 screen names in my sleep last night while casually testing out AimPoo. It’s the same 4.2 that’s up for download too. Nothing special. How cool is that?

I’m nearing the end of AimPoo, I will stop work soon. ::ghasp:: what was that? Well, you heard it right. I’m going to stop working on AimPoo. I’m gonna drop the project and run. No more support even =o) I’m thinking of handing over ownership of the software/website to Zero (haven’t told him this yet) but I mean, once I release a nice public working version, there’s not much more I actually need to do with it. I will then leave AimPoo and go on to develop another project.

What’s this about a new project? Well I guess now is as good of a time as ever to talk about it. This one I haven’t decided a title for, but it’s a little less ’shadey’ than the AimPoo (’hacking’ wise). I noticed that durring certain peak times (around mid afternoon the day of a new release) I would get FLOODS of IMs and it would practically crash AIM. It was also impossible to work with every IM at the same time. Lots of people I had to ignore, or started with, and minimzied, and found hours later again. It was hard to work with. I’m thinking of writing a lite and simple aim client created for tech-support situations using the answering machine / hold line style of getting to users. Basically, you tell it how many people you can help at the same time, and anyone else who IMes you gets a “please hold, you are customer nunmber 7 on the list” message. I’d like to include multiple screen name support, so it can refer people away to a 3 or 4 different tech-support people (with auto-online detection?) It’s all an idea and totally in my mind. I just thought it’d be a cool idea…

I spent over 4 hours today deviating. You know, deviantart.com. Man I love that place. I encourage every mature teenager or young adult to spend an hour a week there. You get so much cool stuff! There’s so much talent there. So much creativity! So much randomness. The two images I’ve decided to use for tonight’s post were some I found today that I thought were cool. The bunny one I put up there just because I wanted to*. The other one I thought was really funny =oD

Yahoo! Pool and Checkers has resumed in my life yet again! grrr how does it do it?! You’d think after years of remaining the same Yahoo’s games would dwindle in your heart. But no. I think they send subconcous signals to people that especially manifest in slightly psychopathic teenagers and all the sudden for no reason they start to CRAVE it again! Help me! Someone! I beg of you. /puts on a shinki-baka style crys-sream/ Rip me away from these yahoo games! Peel my fingers from the keys of my keyboard and rip my body out of my chair for I am becoming obsessive! Obsessive I tell you! I am going to pass out! I’m feeling dizzy! My head feels like it’s shrinki- … >thump<

[20 minutes later] where am I…? Oh yes, blog.

I spoke with one of the ‘cool people’ I met yesterday, but the other one has vanished! Where did the AimPoo guy go? Man we had so much cool stuff planned! I wonder if it was all a scheme? a plan? a scam? It’s been more than 24 hours and I haven’t heard a word from the guy, nor have I seen him online. Actually, his SN was on, but it claimed to be a friend of his that shared is screen name. Strange, isn’t it? Anyway, hello to you if you’re reading this and I’m talking about you. If you’re the guy… contact me… mmk?

My site’s popularity keeps going up and I can’t seem to figure it out! I mean, for real, what’s up with this? When it comes to hits, I’ve gotten about two and a half grand unique visitors in the last seventeen days alone. I don’t understand it. All my site is is a simple blog, some tutorials, an about page… I don’t get it. Oh well, let the people come. It’s somewhat comforting, but it’s also distancing. I liked it when my site was small and unpopuar =o) It was much more cozy and people felt like they were personal with it. Now, it’s starting to get too commercial. I’m trying my hardest not to let it affect the way I write or the things I say or the way I act, but it’s hard. I have to imagine my hits will start slowing down soon… I think… but who knows where it will go from here.

Today I was reminded of the times I spent with Misia… It seems like so long ago, but it was only a few months. Well, it was a good year. I don’t know, the whole thing seems like a dream. I guess, in a sense, our time together was a dream =o) She was so nice and kind, with this unexpectable random twist to her. I can’t define her in words but I’m glad we were able to spend th
ose times together, and do realize that her death was probably the best thing for me, as painful as it was. /sigh/ If you don’t know the story, don’t bother looking it up. For the people who keep asking me what I think about it / what my side on it is now etc… simple thankfullness and contentment, not that it’s all finished. A simple plan gone horribly wrong turned into one of the greatest and personally largest events of my upper-childhood. I don’t know why it impacted me as much as it did. I know people think I’m an idiot. I don’t care… something… i can’t tell what… it really made a big impact on me, and I liked it. I guess you could say, it was this crazy entity called Misia that shaped a large part of who I am today ^_^

I went to a movie today with two girls! Ok so it was my sister and her friend =op What, you thought I was actually going places with women?! ha! Well, I do admit, I had fun. Humm, fun isn’t the right word. I can’t define it. I thouroughly enjoyed leaving my house for a few hours, and getting away from it all. My sister’s friend gave the trip just enough dynamic conversation to make it suprisingly interesting, but not overloading. I was able to be mostly quiet, listen, and enjoy myself ^_^ And, the cool thing about going to movies with people you’re not dating… You don’t have to buy them anything XD No flowers, no food, no candy, nuh uh, plot yo’ cash on the counter darling. Ok so I’m not that extreme. My personal rule is, despite wheter the girl is “with me” or not; If she went to a movie or meal with me, I’ll pay for her movie ticket or meal, unless she insists and claims it’s her parents money ^_^ I figure, hey, that’s not bad. Am I a horrible person? (don’t answer that munin)

I had a new layout! for… 10… minutes. Can you imagine? I spent an hour or so re-vamping this website and making a whole new layout. Why? Well out of hundred thousand people who have been to my website since it opened, ONE person IMed me saying that the white background hurt his poor little baby eyes and I should darken the site. So, I remade the entire site. And it sucked. Big time. I removed it 10 minutes later and reverted this website to its exact original form. /sigh/ I hope I remember this event the next time I have some great idea to change the look… I’ll mention again, by the way, Laura gave me the idea for this site. Thanks! ^_-

I had more to talk about, but it’s late, and I should close now. I think I’ll try to remember as much of what I wanted to say as I could for tomorrow. I was going to, yet again, clear up some issues about Asian women because everyone seems to get my views wrong X_x I really need to clear that up… mm… yeah

sidenote: no spellchecking tonight!

It was a pleasure talking to you! Please comment, email, or IM me, ok? I love getting positive remarks about the things I write, and even negative ones if said in kindness. I’m Scott, and you know who you are. Good night.
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