Archive for November, 2003

yeah, that’s right. Finally! Off my crappy internet connection! Woohoo!

I’m not 100% sure I’m going to be using this company… but things are really slick so far. I feel pretty good about these guys =o) So far, they’ve been treating me really well and been great people to work with…. more info later.

It’ll be at least a day or two before I can move my whole website over to this new host… I have a TON of server-specific code I wrote since I never dreamed I’d move to a real host… (never would have imagined my site would get so big). So, gimme a few days, see what happens…

dumpage… dumpage? What the heck is that supposed to mean? No clue. I only write these blogs, I don’t have to know what they mean. Anyway, I arrived back from my ‘vacation’ a few hours ago. The car ride was long but not quote so tedious this time. I’m going to try to give a recap of the trip highlights without being boring, repetetive, or redundant. However, I have a feeling I’m about to feel miserably. After I address the various issues and topics from the past days, I’ll write about today, and some ideas and thoughts I have. How interesting!

However, first, a screenshot. I’m putting this here partially because I haven’t given you all a screenshot in two months, and partially because I wanted to add some color to this incredibly bland start page. So, here ya’ go. Click it to make it bigger ^_- Oh, the glory of multiple monitors. Now, for those of you who talk to me, when I say “hold on I’m busy” you know what I’m talking about!

Yeah, so, I watched a movie on the way to the vacation. Hackers 2 – Operation Takedown. I’ll admit, the movie was great from a humor standpoint. I audibally laughed several times. If you’re into computers and/or hacking stuff, you should check it out. It didn’t have a really strong plot or much actual technoligy in it to make it worthwhile otherwise.

Thanksgiving dinner… who said WHAT?! I don’t know why I’m mentioning this it’s not really big but I can’t think of anything else to put here ^_^ It’s one of those embarrassing family moments that you can do little more than laugh at. So, what happened? Well everyone was around our Thanksgiving night family dinner. My family, their parents, and a friend, so there were a lot of people I’d say. Somehoe the topic arose of how two people met. Then, it talked about age differences. “why, when you’re in highschool, a guy 7 years older than a girl is crazy, but when you get older it’s nothing!” Then it got turned to whether or not it’s a bad thing to date young with the girl so much younger. Then something came up and my grandmother said “well no guy would want a girl a lot older than he is!”… pause… everyone turned their head and looked at me. ::blink:: It’s like, hey! what’s all that about! sheesh. ANYWAY, moving right along…

oh THIS is funny in a stupid scott-like way… So I get an IM from a guy asking about a tech school in Orlando Florida. He’s like “do you know any info about this school?” and I thought about it and said “no, but I have a friend who’s thinking of going there” and he’s like “oh that’ll be great”. I IM the guy I was talking to being like “hey man, would you be willing to help out a friend of mine asking about this school? He’s pretty newbish” etc etc. Then he’s like “dude, are you on weed? this is my screen name” I’m like “what?” “you gave me TA4 last night” … “oh yeah” XD I’m an idiot. proven. once again.

New quotes record! This is the first day I’ve posted more than 10 quotes in a single 24 hour period. Impressive. I got a lot of dumb IMs tonight =oD You should check it out. Have a laugh! If you’re on there, no big deal, no one cares. Look at the comical side of it. Unlike the mostly boring people who IM me, those who make the quotes page bring a smile to my face!

Whoa! Scott! A blind Asian woman! -_- don’t start with that again. Ok, so, today I watched 2 Asian films One of them was decent. The other ok. The first one (pictured first) is called “The Eye”. This film is of a Chinese woman who has been blind since birth. She takes the oppurtunity to have an experimental operation to try to restore her eyesight, and it works. She’s slowly able to see again. It was awesome to see how they portrayed the first few hours of sight for a blind person. She couldn’t identify objects by looking at them until she touched them. Also, a mirror was fascinating to her. Anyway, there’s one big catch. With her new eye, she sees dead people. Yeah. And they scare her all day and give her nightmares all night. It was a ‘horror’ movie and didn’t have a whole lot of plot. However, a good chunk of the movie happened in Taiwan, which made it really cool. The writing was neat to see, the language was fun to listen to, and Taiwanese peoples’ eyes are so pretty XD Ok, anyway, back to the point. In the end, she’s near an explosion, and scrap metal blasts into her face blinding her again, and now that she can’t see anymore she’s happy. The end. I’d rate the movie a 4 out of 10. However, simply because it invloved a blind Asian woman (which is one of my ‘things’… don’t ask) that’s at least worth another point to bring a decent 5 out of 10! Now, to pause with a diff paragraph just to even up this post. So, the second paragraph was added in later, just skip over it and come back to it if you’re easialy confused.

AIM Irony X_x …it’s starting to really get to me again… my raw (html sripped) gaim logs today grew by 9,500 words in the few hours I’ve been home. However, only a small handfull were good! By good, I mean people who I liked talking with. It’s getting really annoying. People these days are IMing me only for compter help. Now, some tech support or questions, sure, I’ll do that. But ”friends” IMing me and making 30 secs of small talk to try to soften me up to a computer question? That’s a pain. And the worst is when you really want to talk to someone and they just totally ignore you after 2 lines. It’s like… If you want to talk, let’s talk. If you don’t, say so! But don’t just… not answer! That sounds like something I would do! ^_^

Oh yeah, one more film about insanity! Yeah, I know, I can relate to this one right? ^_^ Well, the next film I watched was called “dolls”. It was really sad. Basically, here’s the plot for ya. A girl and guy are perfect for eachother, met at a young age, grew up as awesome friends, and planned to get married. However, the guy’s parents forced him to marry a girl that would help their family status. The day of the wedding, the ‘ex’ tried to commit suicide by overdosing on some meds. She didn’t die, but she ruined her brain. She went insane. The guy heard this at his weddding before he was getting married. He ran away from the wedding and didn’t tell anyone he was leaving. He went to find her in the mental hospital. He found her, completely incoherant. She didn’t know who he was, she couldn’t talk, she seemed to stare into space… the guy sneaked her out of the place and they drove to a parking lot far away from town. They parked there, and he just watched her as she looked blankly out the window. This happened for days. Weeks. Months. Then they set off and wandered together. Basically at the end, she never regained her sanity, and they were both homeless =o, It was pretty interesting up until the half way point, but nothing really good near the end. He ended up giving up his life and everything he had to be around this girl. Sorta like that true love thing was there all the time, but she didn’t see it, and now he’s showing it, and she’ll never see it… /shrug/ I dunno. If it’d have finished sad, I’d have loved it. If it’d had finished happy, I’d have loved that too. But just leaving you hanging, not resolving the problem at all? I don’t know… It did keep me thinking long after I finished it. It’s a good movie, I just didn’t like it. I give it a 3 out of 10.

wrapping up… People tell me that these blogs are too long. Well they can blow it out their eas. (ears, with new yorkish accent) Typing to myself if theraputic and I like to do it =o) If you don’t want to read it, then don’t read it! Jeez /rolls eyes/

I am a total idiot. Well, ok, so you knew that all along. I’m sitting here at three thirty in the afternoon on a library computer at college. A class was cancelled and I forgot about it until I went in and sat down and realized no one was there X_x This afterlunch class cancellation combined with the test-taking previous class that let out an hour early makes my lunchtime loitering period about four houts. But, hey, look on the bright side. I got a lot of websurfing done =oD

I obsess over things, don’t I? webserver webserver webserver. linux linux linux. aimpoo aimpoo aimpoo. Korean movies Korean movies Korean movies… ok wait that’s a love not an obsession. ANYWAY, my point is that I get these stupid little ideas in my head and have a hard time letting go of them. However, this isn’t always a bad thing in my opinion. I sure have fun and usually learn a lot from these little ‘projects’ and it’s hot I get 95% of my work done. Anyway, what’s next? Well, I started playing around with my hardware last night. I have an old almost completely useless 200mhz laptop with bad ram that barely works. I found a slackware cd and popped it in to boot into linux (without installing it). I then used a little program I downloaded to control the signals goung out of the parallel port. I spent a little time and hooked up eight LEDs to my computer via the parallel port, and with a simple shell script I discovered how to make them light up in every combination possible. (255 possible combos, controlled by an 8-switch binary number) Anyway, I started thinking of cool things I could do with this. A light flashing when I have new email would be cool. A light flashing on my webserver when someone is downloading files would be cool. Maybe I could assign a differnet LED to every different filetype I upload? Or.. did you ever see Knight Rider? da da da da! scanning back and forth red LEDs just for looks. Or, make the speed of the scanning a direct representation of the system CPU load. Or maybe I could make the lights virtical and have it plug into winamp, so it’s a little equalizer that goes up and down on the volume. Oh the possibilities!

but… Scott never stops where he should… So, some more googling around and what do I find? none other than the uber-cool LCD panels that can you can use to display characters by connecting it directly to a parallel interface =oD I might have to break out my soldering eqipment and get an old computer and start making something cool. I’d love to start getting back into writing gcc-compilable software, and last night’s writing was sure fun… I think this could be a cool little thing to play with. I could show xmms songtitles, tail -f (monitor) apache logfiles, watch the system temperature and/or cpu load. If I get a big enough one (40×2?) I could even use it as a console XD The reason I’m looking into this little thing is because I’m working on designing a new case for the crappiest computer in my room: my fileserver. It needs to hold a lot more hard drives and work well (cooling wise). And, hey, why not make it look cool? Since it’s headless (no monitor) it’d be a really cool thing to have a little LCD panel like this to show me the different information. Maybe I’ll get fancy and add different buttons/switches you can push or toggle to display different sets of information? I could do so much. But rest assured, the dumbest idea I come up with is the one I’m most likely going to end up using. ^_-

comments of ideas are welcome…

Ok, I know you’re all asking me what the heck this title is about. Just so you don’t keep asking me as I try to write this, I’ll go on and tell you. Studycramming is my little word that means studying a lot of material in a short amount of time. Blog catsup sounds like “blog catch-up” which is a word I made up to represent the way I am going to write a blog tonight that encompasses both yesterday and today. Got it? Ya’ got it.

Check out the new MP3 I put up for you! I put this paragraph near the top because, hey, it gets your attention. I suggest you download it now so you can listen to it as you read tonight’s blog. How cool is that?! The song I chose for the new mp3 is Aiko’s Kabutomushi. This song is pretty cool in my opinion. It’s nice and slow, has a good voice, and seems to express some clean emotion. I like =o) Oh yeah, it’s not on Korean for the kid who asked me. It’s Japanese. The picture is Aiko’s CD. No, I don’t own the cd. I found that pic on google. I don’t even think it’s a legit one, but I’m not sure.

2 new sections have been added to this website! The first one is the ‘devious’ link under the popular category on the left side of my website menu. It contains links to images I found while browsing deviantart pages. At the moment, it’s a simple intro/proceed page followed by an apache directory lister. The image on the right is one I decided to use for the intro page of the deviant art link. I just felt like adding it in this blog because it had some good colors that go really well with this site. The other section I added was the archives section. It’s been there for months, but it was at the very bottom of the page. I added it as a main menu item link and it looks pretty nice. I also cleaned up the archives.php page to make it easier to navigate. I have been blogging for many years, but due to some very unfortunate accidents, I only have crippled remains of scattered posts. /shrug/ I used to ‘blog’ in a text file I stored on a floppy disk. I’d add to it every month or so. I remember doing this back when I had a 486 of a computer running Windows 3.11 That would make me, what, 9? Wow, I really wish I could find that disk, but I know I probably don’t have it anymore. I’m now putting forth a lot of effort to regurlarly backup the things I write. I accurately have blogs that date back to around June of 2003. Accurately as in “I haven’t missed a blog since then”. I have bits and pieces of previous writings, but they’re not worth adding to my current database. I know I somewhere should have back to october 5′th of 2002 (the last BIG server hard drive event) but I can’t for the life of me find the CD I made. Grr. Anyway, there ya’ go, new sections to play with.

ANOTHER SCOTT HARDEN?! You may have noticed the new icon on the left side of my website under the links section that leads to ScottHarden.com. About six months ago, Scott Harden googled for his own name and found my site. We’ve been friends ever since =o) He’s a cool guy. Very nice. His SN is “scott harden” (DOH!) and his website is scott harden too… he’s sure proud of his name. But guess what… his middle name is William! My middle name is William! Oh, that’s not it. He’s also my age (within a few years). And, as if that’s not freaky enough, the guy is in college now too, getting a degree relating to computers. Although, one difference: he actually has a (Asian) girlfriend (non-imaginary) ^_^ But we won’t start on that now…

Color change? Again?! You’re such a girl scott. Well, about the girl part… humm… we’ll get back to that. About the colors, yeah, I changed ‘em. They’re now back to the original colors. Yes, the layout is pretty close to what the friendly kawaiiayu originally sketched out for me when I asked her for help on making a new simple layout. I said it a thousand times, and I’ll say it again: thanks.

link traders are wanted! That’s right, if you have a website I don’t care how many hits you get. I’d be more than happy to add your banner to my site as long as you put my banner on yours. You’ll be getting tons of hits, I’ll be getting some publicity, it all works out.

studycramming. An hour by myself and a few packs of notecards from now, I’ll be ready to take my govornment test =o) This class is awesome. I’d say it’s my hardest class, but it’s the one I have the best grade in. HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE?!? Not only that, history is by far my weakest / worst / most hated subject. The reason I’m doing well and the reason I actually like this class is simple. The teacher is clear when he says what he’s going to test on. He’ll go “This test will be on chapters 3, 14, and 16″, and on the test, it’ll be on chapters 3, 14, and 16! Because I’m able to know what he’s testing on, I’m able to memorize the material and spit it back out on the tests. My average in this class (at the moment, including lowest grade dropped) is a 100%!!! This teacher is nice, dropping the lowest test score. This way, if I have an A in the course when the final comes around, I can attend the final and turn-in an empty test sheet. I’ll get a zero on it, but it’ll be dropped anyway!!! So I’ll get an A in the class! WooHoo! So, to make sure I can have this luxury, I need a just one more good grade on the test this Tuesday. So, the sudycramming begins =o)

I watched Il Mare again today and really liked it this time! Yeah, you may have seen my older posting about it where I didn’t really care for it… I don’t know why I said that. I thought it was beautiful =o) It was really… humm… what word can I use. It was ‘grabbing’. It kinda reached out and got me and started pulling me in. The story is a simple love story about a guy and a girl. I don’t want to spoil it for anyone who might see it, but they’re separated by certain phenomena. I seemed to connect pretty well with these two people, because in the movie the creatores purposefully overemphasized the lonelyness of single life in the form of independence. They both lived alone in cool houses, and had some really cool stuff, and seemed to enjoy things by themselves. One of my favorite scenes was when both of them (separately) create a beautiful dinner and eat it by themselves (in their own houses). Seing a guy eat a nice dinner with a glass of whine and a candle on the table, with no one else to accompany him, was really striking for some reason. I dunno, that’s just me. You should check out the movie, it’s pretty interesting ^_-

12 PCs in a dorm room in TX? I don’t think so! As you may know, I’m considering attending a college out in TX. (I’d move there) I know that if I’m staying in one of the (small, 2 person) on-campus dorms, I wont have as much space as I’m used to. The pictures of the dorms that I have seen so far make me weak in the knees. I don’t think I’m going to be able to fit 12 computers and 6 monitors in such a small space /shrug/. Not to mention my nice little couch, tv, and other things I worked for that I use a lot. It’d be a little stupid feeling, having to leave everything behind. Though, I’ve decided, if I do go through with it, I will purchase some things to make it easier. First off, I’m leaving everything behind except for my current laptop and my fastest PC. The PC will not have a monitor. In fact, I think I’m going to mod the case to make it the smallest it can possibly be. (an LCD side-panel would be cool too). It will be my fileserver / workhorse. I’ll do everything through a remote console with this puppy. I’ll take my current laptop, which I’ll use for linux. Then, I’ll purchase a relatively mid-rage and somewhat inexpensive noteboot that I can use that will dual-boot (and vmware?) windows and linux. (I’m using linux figuratively, I might go for BSD in some cases). Why so many? Well, obviously, I have to have at least one computer. This one (the new notebook I’d buy) will do all my school stuff, engineering stuff, windows programming stuff, yadda yadda. It’s the one that’d be req’d for school. The other laptop (my current one now) would be my secondary workstation. It’d run a unix, if course, and do everything else I use it for, from unix programming, to website stuff, to hacking, breaking, cracking, packet decryption, and file leeching. Oops, did I say that outloud? hehe… Anyway, what’s the PC for? Well, everyone knows that laptops fit in your lap. They’re small. The disadvantage is you can’t add that much stuff to them. Fore example: 6 hard drives. I counted up the number of hard drives I have (> 20g) and I think that when I combine a 4 IDE motherboard with a 2 IDE raid card, I could have enough space to work with for a while. I have yet to give thought to the idea of this being my CD bruning machine… but I’m sure i’ll work all that out later. So, yeah, I need to store lots of stuff, and I can’t keep it all on my notebooks. On the other hand, since everything important is on that big bix, I’ll be able to freely erase things on my notebooks without losing important data. cool. So, 2 ‘tops and a pc and a pillow: I’m ready to move to TX ^_-

Well, that about concludes this session of rambelings. If you want to hear more ravings of a lunatic mind, tune in tomorrow. I’m going to be pretty busy, but I’ll try to squeeze enough time to post. Tonight’s post was only a little over 1900 words, not quite 2000. Oh well, who’s counting anyway. (beside me, at least)

Save the whales. ( joke )

Scott, your blogs are SO long – yet you have no life? How do you do it? Ok, so I don’t get asked this every day. (I got asked today) But I KNOW people are thinking it ^_^ You see, I am faced with a dilemma. I often cannot think of what I should write about. It’s true! Notice, I didn’t say “I can’t think of anything to write about” ^_- I have so many things that’d be nice to talk about, but I yet again have to gast my thoughts back to the purpose of this blog. In tradition, this is to tell what I do from day to day in my life. However, hey, I admit, I DONT HAVE A LIFE =oD So, I’ll find other things to ramble about. How shall we start off? How about with a bang. Hacking. ..not on the offensive side, for once. Let’s play a little keep-the-tail-from-being-pinned-on-the-donkey.

So, what with the hacking talk Scott? Well, toady an interesting conversation occurred between a stranger and myself. In short, the guy googled for his own website, found that someone I’m hosting was writing semi-bad things about it, and was consitering launching a large scale (5 thousand computer, he claimed) denial of service attack on my website. For those of you who don’t know what I mean, a denial of service (DOS) is a very simple way to crash a website. Picture pretend you want information from me. You’d call me. The action of you dialing my number, me answering and giving you information is a great explaination for how websites work. You dial the website (type in the domain) and it answers it (generates the webpages) and gives you the information you want (lets you download the webpage). Normally, everything’s cool and running smooth. The problem is when I try to get two phonecalls at once. If I’m on the phone, I can put you on hold until I’m done with the first guy, and then talk to you. The same thing works for webservers. They can talk to multiple people, but it gets slower and slower the more people you send info to. A DOS attack uses multiple computers (in this case, five thousand) to send me so many phone calls at the same time, that there’s no way I can answer them all! By flooding my website with requests for information, it brings it to it’s knees and it literally locks EVERYBODY out. That, figuratively, is a DOS attack. Interesting, huh? And, oh yeah, it is a felony.

So, uhh, what happened? Well it was pretty easy to resolve the conflict with this guy. I don’t want to sound like I’m dissing or putting him down in any way, by writing this, but he wasn’t some “incredible coder” or god-like computer user. He was, for all practical purposes, one of you. Yes, you, reading this blog. The interesting and disturbing thing as that someone like this who (at least in his claims) has access to the power to bring down any little site he wants for a few hours =o, I’m sure this person was relatively wise and had some common sense, but that’s not what I’m getting at. I’m getting at how easy it would be go get this stuff in the hands of a total newbie. Getting hacked by a very skilled hacker would be kinda cool I think… But getting your site knocked down from some little script kiddie running a dos attacker? That’s really dumb. And, yes, btw, I did say that getting hacked would be cool ^_^ Anyone can run a DOS script, that takes zero skill and it completely dumb. However, sitting at my computer actively fighting a ‘hacker’ as he or she tries to gain access to my system(s) through actual knowledge and skill? That sounds so fun to me =o) I’d probably get totally owned, but it’s all good. It’d be something to talk about ^_^ I’ll admit, my certain combination of my router and multiple computers behind it is far from locked-down secure. Oh well, I’ve touched enough on this subject. Bring on the good stuff.

Everyone seems to ask me about school these days, I don’t know why. It’s weird. Everything’s looking pretty good… That math test I got yesterday puts my average in that class to a 98.2, which I think is funny, since it’s the average human body temperature since 1998. (98.6 was a figure developed in the 80’s, if I’m correct). How do they teach it in schools these days? Somenoe get back to me on this, it’d be interesting to know.

I think I might put my projects on hold for a few days.. Yeah, I know AimPoo too =op I’m starting to feel really squeezed out of my life, and think a little rest and relaxation (wow, is that what R&R stands for? I just got that!) would be good for me. My two new projects, I’ve decided, will be put on hiatus until AimPoo is released. I thought I’d at least let everyone know that much, because I don’t want to get totally swamped with IMs about it.

People find me… it’s cool! I started thinking lately how cool it is that I’m meeting so many people thanks to this website exploding in size. Lately, especially from AimPoo, I’ve been getting IMs from hundreds of people. Yeah, 80% of them are total jerks, but some of them are really nice people I’m very happy to have met. I have noticed a really interesting pattern from this. First of all, the obvious thing is that most people who claim to be elite are really full of themselves and actually some of the most ignorant newbie’s you’d ever meet. Nothing aginst beginners, I mean, hey, even the most incredible computer people started out somewhere. It’s just that attitude of stuck-up arrogance that’s… ghaw, it’s frustrating. Then, on top of that, they’re most often the ones that feel some desire to diss me and/or my work. Nothing like getting insulted by idiots -_- Now, on the flip side, some of the nicest stragners I’ve met online via this website are people who’re just starting out in the ‘deeper side’ of computers. Some of the guys I meet are really nice and seem genuinely honest, and some of the girls I meet are really kind =o) When chosing to troubleshoot between a “1337 H4X0R” and a simple guy or girl, I’ll go for the simple one any day. Not only their attitude, but also their appreciation! It’s such an AWESOME feeling to do something nice for someone and get some positive feedback and a genuine thanks from the person you helped =oD Once again, it’s the smallest things that make the biggest differences in me! If anyone took the time, I think I’d be a really easy guy to figure out and manipulate… remember that girls ^_-

Another night listening to the mysterious Korean DJ… Yeah I know I’m gonna get some pots and pans and tomatoes thrown at me for talking about this in my public blog. For those of you who (are probably better off because they) don’t know what I’m talking about, I’ll do a few sentence recap. I found this radiostation that is broadcasted from Korea. If you’re interested, you can tune in here (load it in winamp). In case you tuned in just now, I’d like you to know that they play a lot of western and/or stupid sounding Asian music, and I will admit that I like less than 10% of the music played on most of these stations. ANYWAY, on with the story. Friday nights they have this show or something, I don’t know what it is. For hours and hours this girl talks (reads letters?) on the air and discusses things in Korean. I don’t know what it is… but.. wow… her voice is so cool =oD I can’t get enough of it. I find myself waiting all week in anticipation for the friday nights when I can turn on the radio station and listen to this woman’s voice. I don’t know why I find it so fascinating; I can only guess. My current theory is it’s the simple mystery. In my day to day life, I have everything more or less (usually over-) analized and I don’t have anything I really wonder about. This girl, talking so nicely in Korean, what is she saying? Is she talking about her childhood? Some guy’s marrage problem? Maybe she’s doing a commercial for kitty litter? Not know what she’s saying mixed with not knowing about her seems to really spin in my head… by that second part, I mean that I think I can tell things about her simply from her voice. Though it’s interesting to think about, yet again… where did she grow up? is she having a good day? how old is she? does she like the color green? where does she live? what is her life like? It’s something I know so little about, I actually have room to use my imagination for once… but we won’t go there ^_-

What, you’re gonna give up your website?!? I have 3 current issues on my mind about it. The first one is hosting. Right now, I’m running it on my home roadrunner internet line. It’s very cool, because I’m running it all on my own servers. The downside is that the bandwidth is becoming limited, now that I’m getting so many users visiting my site. Two years ago, my visitors were measured in tens per month. Now, I get thousands a month. It’s certainly growing.. I’m going to have to eventually… ghaw I can’t figure out when to make the switch. And, when I do switch, I have a feeling I’ll lose a LOT of luxuries I have now. 400 gigs of webspace is one example. /shrug/ I might see about spending some cash for a good host and trying it out for a while. What do I know. I’m undecided, in every aspect of my life, even the aspect as to whether or not I’m undecided or not…

whoa whoa whoa, you’re not going to even THINK about changing your layout again are you? ::grin:: Here’s my purposal. I will make a few (4 or 5) different layouts and use them each for 1 week. After every layout is used, I’ll ask for comments and suggestions and tips and ideas. From there, I’ll decide what to do. My current layout I like, but it’s a little limiting, and I’ll admit the new color scheme doesn’t look too hot. I have some ideas in mind, I’ll try to tap into my forever-unused creativity, but then again, that’s scary in itself.

What was the 3′rd thing? Oh yeah, thanks for reminding me. I almost forgot. I’m going to be adding some new sections. Yeah, I know, I’ve said that for months, but this time I’m serious. Ok, I know I said that for months too. I’m going to add things that’ll be suprisingly interesting to people! An example is a page of my constantly-added favorite images I find while browsing deviant’s site! Now you have to admit, THAT will be cool. Boil down 4 hours of browsing into 10 or 20 pictures. Wow, awesome.

Yet again, it is time to go
but I just wanted to let you know
that the things you think you see
are not always good interpretations of me
and you should certainly think twice
about everything that meets your eyes
because I’m a human like you
(I just write software related to poo)
… wow that rhyme was bad
it really makes me sad
ahh no! i’m doing it again
rhyme lines 2,4,6,8, and 10
vahh! make it stop!
You could even use a /thwawp/
Like a yellow spring dasey
I seem to have gone crazy
I know it’s because I’m really tired
but the caffeine made me wired
curse that crazy mountain dew
though I only had a few
something like one or two
if only I knew
I’ll be up past kerfew
it’ll do stupid stuff to you
stuff that’s just not coo
I need to call pepsico and sue
because now I’m rhyming too
I really need to go now, it’s true
but here I am writing aimpoo
so what if the version’s new
wow I need to go. /phew/

note: This is the first normal day-post that I broke 2,000 words. 2035, actally, not including this line!

For the person (I forgot who it was) who told me that I need to think of using better titles for my inidividual blog postings, this one’s for you. =op I thought yesterday’s blog title was very creative and descriptive, with a slight aftertaste of crudeness.

/sigh/ Today was going well, until nothing happened, then it went downhill? Well, I guess I’d best start off in the beginning. I woke up thismorning and my alarm clock hadn’t gone off for some reason… I don’t know if it literally didn’t go off, or if it did go off, but I got off the floor and turned it off and went back to sleep without remembering it. (one heck of a runon sentence). For waking up so late, I was able to arrive at school on time. I took a shower and walked out the door in 5 minutes. I arrived at school early, suprisingly. To my delight (I hadn’t gotten much sleep last night) my first class professor (who is normally incredibly boring) was somewhat animated today. I normally have to fight sleep in that class, but this morning, I did all right. The other classes were good. I got a 100% on a math test. Ok, so I lied. It was a 97% but he added 3 extra percent because on the last test I ‘missed’ a question that I still think is right and took it to him. He gave me some points to play with =o) I think I may have mentioned the exact problem in an earlier blog, so all’s good. At lunch, I met and spoke with Jon L for quite some time. I think I’m going to take my notebook to school over this two and a half hour lunch break, it’d sure make it nicer. Then again, I’m practicing this social interaction thing, and it’s working pretty well. Now, I feel somewhat comfortable talking to one or two people at a time =o) Small groups though are still like.. whoa… get me out of this place… must… have… computer… ::blink::… pool! Ok, new paragraph, before I go off on another tangent.

Oh yes, the bad thing, what was the bad thing Scott? Well, it sounds really stupid. No… it IS really stupid. In fact, I’m not going to even say what it is it’s that dumb. But for some reason, I don’t know why… it really hit me in the gut. Something small someone said to me instantly got to me.. You know that feeling when you walk in a class and realize you didn’t study for a test? Yeah, that feeling. Yuck! That’s the feeling I got when I hears this line from this person. It really made me go ahhck! It’s been ringing in my ears ever since. /shrug/ I’m trying to touch the topic without giving it away, but I can’t really. All I can say is that the person was very kind and nice and had no idea he/she said anything that would have affected me, however the aftereffects left me feeling awkward, sad, and lonely. Can you believe it? Lonely in my own room. Jezz, the nerve of these people ^_^ Ok, I’m rambeling again. It’s the late night caffeine, can you tell? I try to keep somewhat orderly and structured blogs but tonight… pfft… whatever.

I need to talk (again) about this blog! Lots of people are getting the total wrong idea of what this is and what this is for. I’ll be clear. I write this blog purely for myself. I love being able to look back on things I’ve drawn, created, or written years ago. I’m trying to keep an accurate and easialy archivable web log (weblog in short is blog) and am choosing HTML as the favored way to do it. Why? It’s easy to add to, easy to edit, easy to look back on, easy to store, and it can hold pictures and special text formatting! Cool stuff, ‘eh?

SO! for those of you who are mean to me for putting my blog on my website… You need to realize what this is here for and realize how (it doesn’t) affect you =o) If this blog irritates you so much, or my political, religous, ethical, or social views conflict with you to the point where you can’t control yourself, you really should refrain from reading my blogs in the first place! I love getting email from people who are kind. I love getting email from people who may be criticizing, but honest and genuine. BUT PLEASE! SPARE ME FROM THE RANDOM FRUSTRATED HATE EMAILS! No, I will not find you a girlfriend. No, I will not teach you linux. No, I will not make you a new layout. No, I will not debug your php pages. No, I will not act as a replacement for google… and no, I will not fix your computer. Nice emails are welcome and appreciated. But spare me from the junk, mmk?

tidbit: FOX news called my house today. They wanted to do an interview with me tomorrow afternoon getting a 1 on 1 conversation with the creator of AimPoo! I declined though. I was going to have lunch with my mom tomorrow afternoon.

yes, that was a joke, lighten up people, jeez, I’m tellin’ ya.

I REALLY NEED ADVICE AND COMMENTS ON AN IDEA FOR A NEW PIECE OF SOFTWARE I’M THINKING OF WRITING! Here’s where you come in. Please contact me via email or the form on this website or IM or the comments page. Tell me what you think of this idea. You will, won’t you? Yeah, I know you will. I love you. Ok, so, what is this? First of all, this is NOT a hacking program =o) This is a free, clear, legal, and non-shadey application anyone can download and use. I haven’t figured out the details of how it’s going to work, but my idea is like this. Once installed, this little program runs 24/7 while your computer is on. It’s one of those little icons in windows in the system tray (that area on the bottom right by the clock). This program would have a plethera of options you could work with, but in my example I’m going to give some simple settings, but realize all numbers and times I use will be changable…

Every 4 hours, this little program checks the CPU usage and when it gets a quiet time where no one is trying to use the computer strenuously, it goes online and downloads some webpages. The webpages it downloads are webpages you tell it to look at. The webpages are your favorite blogs! The program will copare it to the last viewed version of the website, and if it’s more than 30% different, it popps up a little reminder and says “hey! this page has changed!” and you can either view it then, or have it remind you later. If you’re like me you probably have 10 or 15 blogs you’d love to read, but it’s too tedios to check them every few hours of every day! This way, the blogchecker can do all of that work for you! Hey, it might not be a hit. Hey, people might not like it. But I’m tellin’ you something: I would love a program like this! To be able to casually use my computer and be alerted when one of my friends updates their blogs? Dang! I waste a lot of mine time at night clicking on friends’ blogs trying to figure out if I read the latest posts or not. Like I said, give me ANY thoughts relating to this idea. I might wake up tomorrow and be like “what a stupid ida”, so, seriously, I’m open to anything =o)

Ok, well, I’d best be off… It was nice continuing our one way conversation, I hope to see you here tomorrow night. Pretty soon, you’ll be able to use the blogwatcher to determine when you need to come here! Ok, well, if I write it at least. Goodnight ^_-

Wow, I have a lot to talk about and I think I’ll just spill it all out. (hence, the title of today’s post) I don’t have much time, so I’ll have to write fast. In a nutshell, these are the things I’d like to talk about tonight. I’ll start off by making excuses, I’ll then go and defend myself, then I’ll go spill personal details about women and me (can’t miss that!), then Ill tell you what constructive I did today, then I’ll tell you the horribly descructive thing I did to someone today, then i’ll tell you about the choice I have to make, then I’ll tell you about some ideas I have, then I’ll tell you about something I want, then I’ll tell you about something I feel stupid for, then I’ll tell you something I need, then I’ll tell you something you should know. Dang, I wish blogs were 2-way communication, but they’re not. I am the one doing all the talking. Then again, there are comments, but no one ever comments anymore! more on this later. So, let’s begin, shall we?

I’d like to start off talking about the picture. I found it a few days ago while deviating and I saved it in my little goodies folder. What’s a goodies folder? Why a folder for goodies, of course! I put images I find in there, so if I don’t have a picture for a blog one day, I can reach in the folder and pull one out. And, a quick note about this picture.. that is NOT a thong he is wearing. It is traditional Japanese samurai underwear. I just wanted to make that clear. Thank you.

I heard something said about me that shocked me today. I’d like to start off and say I’m in no way mad at any of the people that caused or were affected by this issue, ok? Seriously, I completely understand, and I’m simply talking about possible things that could arise in the future, so please don’t think I’m in any way mad at you =o) So, scott, what happened? Well I was eating dinner tonight with my sister and she was talking to my mom. All the sudden she blurted something crazy out about me. Once I stopped coughing on the food I inhaled when I heard it, I was like “what?” My sister then stated clearly what she had said before. I’m trying to protect people here, so, I can’t tell details. If you need them, IM me, and I’ll see what I can do. Anyway, the bottom line was she said that I thought something that I don’t, and it’d have been bad if I did, but it really looks like I did think it because of how the events meshed together. This left my mom giving me an awkard look and me feeling really embarrassed. Depsite how untrue the statement was, Kelly seemed to firmly believe it, and the thing wasn’t very disprovable, from a lack of immediate evidence. Anyhow, the problem arose, yet again, through someone reading my blog and passing an item along a chain of people. By the time my sister said it out, it had become so distorted that it was completely wrong, but had just enough truth in it to seem valid. It was very sad to me for some reason. Not the actual thing she said, but the way she believed it, completely on secondhand evidence. I mean, wow, how many things could you mess up trying to tell other people random things from my writings? I feel I come across pretty well to anyone who reads my writings, but I strongly urge people not to discuss them with people they don’t know, because it really does mess things up badly. And if it’s in a negative sense, then it’s simple gossip, and we all know how much stories change from person to person.

The long delayed mention of Asian women. Wow, I can’t believe I’m writing this. You think it’s a little strange to read about? It’s even more awkward trying to write it. I don’t really want to, but I really do need to. I’m getting SO many people come to me saying things that just make me go “WHAT?!” They’re taking this whole thing outta whack and it’s really frustrating. So, I’d might as well clear things up. I’m sure you’ve seen me poke fun at the fact of me liking Asian women on my about page. You’ve noticed the random references and jokes I make in my blogs about the subject. You’ve most likely also read people comment about it. However, I’ll be the first to admit, I really blow it up more than it is without realizing it ^_^; I can’t think of any really clear way to say this, so I’ll just state the facts. No, I don’t “only like” Asian women. Yes, I think lots of different women of almost all cultures are very pretty. I also would never allow myself to go for someone just because of their ethnicity! I think that is so shallow. I’ve said that I think that I think lots of Asian womens’ eyes are really pretty, but I’ll have to admit, that’s as far as it goes. I know! can you believe it? How disappointing. No, I’m not going to move to Asia (not for the women, at least). Yes, most peoples’ ideas about me and Asian women are wrong. Yes, the whole thing gets blown up bigger than it is. While I’m at the subject, I’ll also mention that I’m not really looking for a girlfriend slash date or some social label of that sort. A cose friend that’s a girl would always be an awesome thing to have =o) but anything more just wouldn’t fit in my life too well right now. And, oh yeah, about the media. I watch Asian movies, yes, but I also watch Eurpoean and American movies too. I know I disappoint you. A person who’s obsessed with something is a lot more fun to gossip about ^_^ But hey, at least I hope I made it a little clearer. Feel free to contact me if you have questions, mmk?

Oh man! I did the worst thing to someone today! I feel bad now! I was working on 20 things earlier. I was up to my neck in stuff to do. Some guy IMed me asking for help -_- Very simple questions too. It started to get very frustrating. I kept closing his IM, but it kept popping up again. (stupid windows client!). No, I didn’t think to just minimize it. Anyway, he started veering-off the subject of questions about my software, and started asing very simple questions about computers that google could easialy answer. He asked “how do I format my hard drive?” So, I told him, and I even gave him the tools to do it. I answered all of his questions honestly, and didn’t lie to him about anything. I also didn’t tell him to do anything he wouldn’t have done. He simply used me to get information about formatting his hard drive. So what was the horrible thing I did? I realized he had no idea that when he formatted his hard drive, it would erase his entire computer… I just didn’t tell HIM that ^_^;;; After I gave him the tools to format his computer, he signed off line. Sure enough, he hasn’t been on since. So, yeah, I have a feeling I’m going to get some IMs from him in a few days, once he get’s his computer back up again. It’ll be interesting to see what he says. If you’re interested, I have posted our conversation on a webpage, so everyone can get a few laughs.

I got accepted into another college today. The engineering school, out in TX… I’m consitering going there. In my own mind, I’m considering it as a 30% chance. However, my parents have recently talked themselves into me going there. They’re pretty sure I’m going. This scares me. I can forsee some bad things happening, if I choose to go to the engineering school that’s here, they’re going to try to pull the plug on things. It’d be interesting to see how quickly they stop paying for my food, charge me rent, take away my transportation, internet, or do other odd things to punish me for not going to a different college ^_^; Though I can’t say anything bad, they havne’t done anything yet. It’s just… from patterns I’ve seen in the past… I see the road narrowing and pretty soon it’ll be too late to get them to turn around. I’m afraid, but the more I talk about it the more the push away from it, so that’s not constructive either. It’s not that I don’t want to go, it’s just that I know absolutely nothing about the school. I know one person who goes there, and have talked to him about it a total of a few minutes… I’m going to be flying out there soon to check it out, which will give me a little more information, but I have to admit that just seeing it with my eyes won’t give me all that much information. /sigh/ I’m worrying about this too early. I need to wait a little while and watch what develops and adjust my life accordingly.

You’ve seen my website change slowly, but what’s next? Well, I’m going to try to keep the same basic feel of this website. A lot of people have gotten used to it, and it’s a nice place to come and hang out in the familiariaty familiarity of the look, the colors, the writing style, and the cheesy humor. I will, however, be adding some more sections soon. I’d like to throw together some quick tutorials, but where will the time come from? humm… maybe if I stop writing a NOVEL of a blog every night, I could actually get some work done. jeez!

Oh yeah! I HAVE to see this movie. Guess who’s in it? Misia!!! Yeah, isn’t it cool? She also sings lots of the songs. I don’t know how good, bad, or stupid the movie is, but you know I have to download and watch it ^_^ Misia is my favorite japanese singer. She’s has an incredibly unique singing style (dare I call it rnb?) and is the sole inspiration behind the name of my old best friend Misia, who died about a year ago. CHECK OUT THE MOVIE TRAILER! The trailer is clean, btw. The movie is called dragonhead, and I need to get it…

No one cares about me anymore… Ok, so that’s not true. It got your attention though, didn’t it? What I was getting at is, no one blogs anymore =op It was nice being able to come home from school and see I had 20+ people leave comments about the previous day’s post. It sure made it easier to have inspiration for things to write about! It also gave me a very clear view about how people took the things I wrote about, and if I needed to re-state anything in the next post. Feedback is important, I don’t need it, but I really really do want it. In case you’re new to reading peoples’ blogs, or you just don’t know, It’s polite courtesy to comment every time you read one or more postings. If you read a blog once a week, post once a week. If you read a blog every two days, post every two days. If you read a blog randomly, post when you read it! It certainly does make the writer feel good =o) Just a tip, all you fellas.

a post-rant rant First of all, you can spell-check my butt. No way I’m reading this whole dang post. /sigh/ It’s past midnight, but I’ll set the post time of this blog back just a little so it still shows up as being on wednesday. It was nice talking with you all, and I’ll be sure to write tomorrow. I stil get some very kind emails from people, some I know, some I don’t, and some are anonymous. I just wanted to say thay that if you’re one of the people who sends the kind emails, I greatly appreciate it. It’s interesting to see how the smallest kindnesses make such a great impact on your day ^_^ Last tuesday, I got a smile from someone. It was so plain, simple, the person wouldn’t even recognize me if he/she were to see me again. But for something so small, it really made me feel good, and look! I remember it, more than a day and a half later =o)

So, with that, share some smiles, and go to bed. Oh yeah, and comment ^_^

somebody…
pull…
me…
away…
from…
the…
pool…
vah!

[sucked into a bottomless ravine]

I am NOT addicted.
I have complete control.
I can resist a pool offer even if the per-

brb, gonna play a few games

Well I don’t have much time tonight, so I’ll see what I can do in a few minutes. You probably noticed the small changes I made to my website today. I changed the look of the top right logo to something that’s painful to look at. I also changed the left column background color to a glossy black. I think the colors blend nicely with the rest of the site, don’t you? That top left image I’m going to try to change more regularly. At the moment, it’s a closeup of the image that’s in today’s blog. I found it yesterday while deviating. I’m not sure why I’m drawn to this image. However, I think I’ll analize it.

To confirm my weirdness, I’ll write the reasons why this picture seemed cool to me the first time I saw it in the order that I thought of things. First of all, the color is awesome. I look at it and it’s just… gawwgggg it’s great. The background square zoom thing behind the main focal point that’s slightlf offset is a great touch. I then focus right in on the eyes… (hehe, my weak point) Check out the sape of that eye! You have to admit it’s awesome. The mask adds to it. I think that leather-bucled neck thing is a cross between a modern clothing style, a bandit’s mask, and a horse muzzle. What an interesting mix? Then add in that top mask and it’s greatly more interesting. And, wow, take a look at the ears. The way you can see the folds in the reflection of the light, aww it’s great. Moving down you can see the tail is nice and looks really good when it comes to the lighting. The pants need a little help, but what’re those? are those syringes in that double crossbelt? Whoa, weird… I doubt it implies narcodic drug use, but you never knoow the intentions of these ‘artists’. I think they’re defensive, and are to be thrown. Thwap! Right in someone’s neck. Anyway, take a look at that glowing thing. It looks interesting, a little animal inside, but it loses interest fast. Whoa, check out that hair? It’s curly? Is this a girl? Oh man, her shirt, it has, uhh… it’s um… it’s like… well it kinda… beside the… i mean… right… um… her neck goes… err… the x… i mean… the shadow… folding… uhh.. buhh.. duhh.. ah.. ba… it’s a girl-cat, ok? And she looks like she’s reay to kick some major butt.

Today was weird. I got sick at work X_x I woke up and went to work. I left work two hours early because I got REALLY sick. You know when you ate something you probably shouldn’t have and you can feel your stomach just churning for 10 minutes solid? That’s what I felt… and i realized… oh crap… this can’t be good. Then I started getting waves of nausea X_x. I almost left then, but I felt too sick and light headed to go. I waited for a nauesa wave to pass, then I threw my stuff in the car and raced home. I got in the door (left my stuff in the car) and ran to the bathroom and ggrrrawwww there were fireworks and flahes of light and thunder and it was a real show. I didn’t tell anyone at work I got sick though XD I didn’t want it to sound like I was making excuses /shrug/

software teaser: my new (non-aimpoo) piece of software should be done after one more hour of work. It’s a very simple program, only a single exe file. All I can tell you are these three things. It is for windows only. It is for advanced users only. It is a quick gui-front end to hand-modifying a certain configuration file that I have to do by hand EVERY time I go to work or get back home. If you’ve figured out what it is, congrats. If not, you probably wouldn’t know what it is even if I told you. No offense, you just dont have a need for it. obtw, there are other software apps that do this, but mine would be far easier, faster, cooler, and with more features.

conclusion Ok, I’m off. Despite the fact I played 12 games of yahoo pool, I had a pretty constructive and fulfilling day. (yes, I lost at pool, a lot) I normally spend this time to read other peoples’ blogs at night, but this is the first night in a long time that I feel really tied and am going to go to sleep. I guess it is almost twelve. (no spellchecking tonight folks) Ehh, who cares anyway. /yawn/ I’m outta here. Goodnight everybody =o)

It’s very late now, but I need to type a long blog anyawy. Here goes nothin’ I’ll start off by talking about what happened this morning. I had been running AimPoo all night for debugging / error testing purposes. I turned on the monitor to see if there were any errors and there were 2!.. I looked closer… wait… these aren’t errors… they’re hacked name notifications! =o) That’s right, I hacked 2 screen names in my sleep last night while casually testing out AimPoo. It’s the same 4.2 that’s up for download too. Nothing special. How cool is that?

I’m nearing the end of AimPoo, I will stop work soon. ::ghasp:: what was that? Well, you heard it right. I’m going to stop working on AimPoo. I’m gonna drop the project and run. No more support even =o) I’m thinking of handing over ownership of the software/website to Zero (haven’t told him this yet) but I mean, once I release a nice public working version, there’s not much more I actually need to do with it. I will then leave AimPoo and go on to develop another project.

What’s this about a new project? Well I guess now is as good of a time as ever to talk about it. This one I haven’t decided a title for, but it’s a little less ’shadey’ than the AimPoo (’hacking’ wise). I noticed that durring certain peak times (around mid afternoon the day of a new release) I would get FLOODS of IMs and it would practically crash AIM. It was also impossible to work with every IM at the same time. Lots of people I had to ignore, or started with, and minimzied, and found hours later again. It was hard to work with. I’m thinking of writing a lite and simple aim client created for tech-support situations using the answering machine / hold line style of getting to users. Basically, you tell it how many people you can help at the same time, and anyone else who IMes you gets a “please hold, you are customer nunmber 7 on the list” message. I’d like to include multiple screen name support, so it can refer people away to a 3 or 4 different tech-support people (with auto-online detection?) It’s all an idea and totally in my mind. I just thought it’d be a cool idea…

I spent over 4 hours today deviating. You know, deviantart.com. Man I love that place. I encourage every mature teenager or young adult to spend an hour a week there. You get so much cool stuff! There’s so much talent there. So much creativity! So much randomness. The two images I’ve decided to use for tonight’s post were some I found today that I thought were cool. The bunny one I put up there just because I wanted to*. The other one I thought was really funny =oD

Yahoo! Pool and Checkers has resumed in my life yet again! grrr how does it do it?! You’d think after years of remaining the same Yahoo’s games would dwindle in your heart. But no. I think they send subconcous signals to people that especially manifest in slightly psychopathic teenagers and all the sudden for no reason they start to CRAVE it again! Help me! Someone! I beg of you. /puts on a shinki-baka style crys-sream/ Rip me away from these yahoo games! Peel my fingers from the keys of my keyboard and rip my body out of my chair for I am becoming obsessive! Obsessive I tell you! I am going to pass out! I’m feeling dizzy! My head feels like it’s shrinki- … >thump<

[20 minutes later] where am I…? Oh yes, blog.

I spoke with one of the ‘cool people’ I met yesterday, but the other one has vanished! Where did the AimPoo guy go? Man we had so much cool stuff planned! I wonder if it was all a scheme? a plan? a scam? It’s been more than 24 hours and I haven’t heard a word from the guy, nor have I seen him online. Actually, his SN was on, but it claimed to be a friend of his that shared is screen name. Strange, isn’t it? Anyway, hello to you if you’re reading this and I’m talking about you. If you’re the guy… contact me… mmk?

My site’s popularity keeps going up and I can’t seem to figure it out! I mean, for real, what’s up with this? When it comes to hits, I’ve gotten about two and a half grand unique visitors in the last seventeen days alone. I don’t understand it. All my site is is a simple blog, some tutorials, an about page… I don’t get it. Oh well, let the people come. It’s somewhat comforting, but it’s also distancing. I liked it when my site was small and unpopuar =o) It was much more cozy and people felt like they were personal with it. Now, it’s starting to get too commercial. I’m trying my hardest not to let it affect the way I write or the things I say or the way I act, but it’s hard. I have to imagine my hits will start slowing down soon… I think… but who knows where it will go from here.

Today I was reminded of the times I spent with Misia… It seems like so long ago, but it was only a few months. Well, it was a good year. I don’t know, the whole thing seems like a dream. I guess, in a sense, our time together was a dream =o) She was so nice and kind, with this unexpectable random twist to her. I can’t define her in words but I’m glad we were able to spend th
ose times together, and do realize that her death was probably the best thing for me, as painful as it was. /sigh/ If you don’t know the story, don’t bother looking it up. For the people who keep asking me what I think about it / what my side on it is now etc… simple thankfullness and contentment, not that it’s all finished. A simple plan gone horribly wrong turned into one of the greatest and personally largest events of my upper-childhood. I don’t know why it impacted me as much as it did. I know people think I’m an idiot. I don’t care… something… i can’t tell what… it really made a big impact on me, and I liked it. I guess you could say, it was this crazy entity called Misia that shaped a large part of who I am today ^_^

I went to a movie today with two girls! Ok so it was my sister and her friend =op What, you thought I was actually going places with women?! ha! Well, I do admit, I had fun. Humm, fun isn’t the right word. I can’t define it. I thouroughly enjoyed leaving my house for a few hours, and getting away from it all. My sister’s friend gave the trip just enough dynamic conversation to make it suprisingly interesting, but not overloading. I was able to be mostly quiet, listen, and enjoy myself ^_^ And, the cool thing about going to movies with people you’re not dating… You don’t have to buy them anything XD No flowers, no food, no candy, nuh uh, plot yo’ cash on the counter darling. Ok so I’m not that extreme. My personal rule is, despite wheter the girl is “with me” or not; If she went to a movie or meal with me, I’ll pay for her movie ticket or meal, unless she insists and claims it’s her parents money ^_^ I figure, hey, that’s not bad. Am I a horrible person? (don’t answer that munin)

I had a new layout! for… 10… minutes. Can you imagine? I spent an hour or so re-vamping this website and making a whole new layout. Why? Well out of hundred thousand people who have been to my website since it opened, ONE person IMed me saying that the white background hurt his poor little baby eyes and I should darken the site. So, I remade the entire site. And it sucked. Big time. I removed it 10 minutes later and reverted this website to its exact original form. /sigh/ I hope I remember this event the next time I have some great idea to change the look… I’ll mention again, by the way, Laura gave me the idea for this site. Thanks! ^_-

I had more to talk about, but it’s late, and I should close now. I think I’ll try to remember as much of what I wanted to say as I could for tomorrow. I was going to, yet again, clear up some issues about Asian women because everyone seems to get my views wrong X_x I really need to clear that up… mm… yeah

sidenote: no spellchecking tonight!

It was a pleasure talking to you! Please comment, email, or IM me, ok? I love getting positive remarks about the things I write, and even negative ones if said in kindness. I’m Scott, and you know who you are. Good night.
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I’ll start off talking about this picture. Lots of people are IMing me lately (mainly in reference to AimPoo, and some to my website). If someone comes up and politely asks for help or asks a question, I would be more than happy to help them out of the goodness of my heart. However, if you come to me and demand help with your problem in an arrogant way, you should expect to be ignored -_- The picture on the left is supposed to be me (yeah, I know, I ripped it. bad). As you can see, it’s in my room, and using my computers. It sorta looks like me. Someone informed me the hair color is horrible. Oh well, I’m colorblind. It looks great to me XD

It still suprises me, the attitudes of some people. Gawh. It’s like, do they actually expect me to want to help them when all they do is whine and say mean things about me and my software? The worst IMs are the ones I get that have nothing but insults about my software and my website(s). I mean, I’m writing this software for fun. I’m writing it with my own time. I’m giving it away for free just for kicks. How do people think they have some right to condemn me for it?! They think I somehow owe it to them to do things for them. grawh. Ok, I’m done flame-ranting. Now to talk about the cool day I had =o)

This morning I spent a few hours writing AimPoo. I finished a new version, beta 4.2 It’s coming along slowly, in little steps. Nothing too big so far. Beta 4.2 fixed a lot of 4.1 bugs that caused it to crash randomly after it ran for several hours. The reason it would crash is because the incoming delayed packets, if arriving at the exact instant as another one, would both try to write to the colored console at the same time. Unfortunately, the current syntax highlighting I was using wasn’t perfect in the sense that if it tried to write twice at the same time, it’d crash the program. So, problems diagnosed and fixed; aimpoo beta 4.2 is great. I added-in some other features, like better error logging and management, and an awesome little mini-browser that’ll make it super-easy to inform AimPoo users about updates and news. I also plan to make it be able to give feedback about the software, so I’ll be able to get some tips from it. Anyway, that’s the updated status on AimPoo

I met two very nice people today =o) In the early afternoon I met a man I’ll refer to as “V”. This is a man with whom I plan to be speaking with a lot over the next few weeks. He expressed an interest in contributing to the AimPoo project. He was one of the nicest guys I ever spoke with on IM, which is a rarity these days. He has some great talent when it comes to drawing. Our actual plans are going to be kept somewhat secret until “the plans unfold”, but I look forward to the future days I can spend working with him and Zero. If you’re reading this V, welcome to the development team of AimPoo!

The other nice person I met about an hour ago… It was a girl whose blog I’ve been reading for a week or two. For those of you who haven’t read my earlier post about the subject, I read lots of strangers’ blogs. I try to find blogs that have a really original writing style (the kind where, if asked, the authors would say “I didn’t know I had a writing style”). It’s this realness that makes peoples’ blogs so fascinating to read. You can really connect with some people and quickly and easialy tell wha they’re thinking and trying to say. Whereas, my blogs, on the other hand, are long and redundantly boring X_x I try to fix that by readind some I think are interesting. ANYWAY, I finally decided to send her an IM today. I was really reluctant to, I feel really stupid saying things like “hi i’ve read your blog for a week and analized it, and you have no idea who I am”, but I decided to bite the bullet and just say a hello =o) Thankfully, she was niced, and didn’t assume I was a stalker, and we talked for a while. She was nice and pretty interesting to talk with. Thus, the second person on my list of “interesting people I met today”.

I think I’m going to rewrite my ‘about scott page’. Both of the people I met today glanced at it, and one of them seemed to really read it. I think it gives some bad signals and notions about who I am, and says things that aren’t generally taken the right way. Then again /sigh/ I don’t know how to change it. I’m not sure what I’m going to do, but I do think I’m going to change my picture. The one with me in the middle of the four Asian girls is cool because it was from China, but all the non-Asian girls I talk to get frustrated because they think I like only Asian women, and the Asian girls I talk to probably think I’m a scumbag for talking to them X_x I can’t win! Oh the humanity! I just had to let that out… I’ve started thinking about it lately, and then tonight I was yet again reminded of it. I don’t know why it embarrasses me to much… ^_^;;;

my website is about to change… What? What is it Scott?! You’re not going to REALLY change your website are you? What’re you going to change about it?! The colors? The pictures? The text? The blog? The layout? Scott you’re not going to abandon your old website are you? You’re not going to abandon your old friends? Everything you’ve ever cared for? You know, I’m always here if you want to talk Scott… If you have something really big that’s going to happen, you can’t keep it a secret!

watch me.

Yeah, i know /shrug/ it’s horrible. My room hasn’t been this disorganized in years ^_^;; I’ve been so busy lately. Today is my first day where I have more than 10 minutes of free time at a time. I’m gonna get this room clean again. sheesh. what a slob scott.

funny things to note:
the current use of my bed
the clean bubble around my desk
the ground of wires by my window (they’re live)
the burger king
the poor cat that just pooped a cdrom drive

I was skimming over my website logs and found that in the last 11 days (beside having over 1,500 unique visitors) I got a few hits from people googling for the term “am i hot.com” I decided to type this into google myself. It’s interesting. Check it out! Go to GOOGLE and search for am i hot.com and my site comes up as the #2 result =o)

It goes to prove something…

Google thinks I’m hot ^_-

Yes, you’ve all noticed. I know this by the 187 IMs sitting on my away message! When I saw that, I thought to myself “I feel loved”. After sifting through them, realizing all but three (3!) were asking for computer help of some sort, I thought to myself “I feel used.” Anyway, I was gone – out of my room – for twenty for hours. Yes, I know, you are all in shock. I stayed at someone’s house for a day. I pretty much chilled, which was a nice alternative from the normal “scott’s room” atmosphere. I did some computer stuff, did some movie stuff, I had a doughnut for the first time in… forever. Although, no, twice at work on fridays smoeone brought in doughnuts which I helped myself to. Anyway, it was nice to get away from my room’s TV and comptuers to go to someone else’s house and… use… THEIR TV and comptuers XD

which reminds me… see that little xd face I use? I use it sparingly. Why? Because no one seems to know what it is. (it’s a smiling, knocked out, happy face, anime style). I think I’m going to hop in gimp one of these days and create a little custom icon set just for my website to express the faces that I use most! What do you think? Feeback on this would be nice. If you think it’d be hokey and stupid, and lower the general experience of the smoothness of this site, let me know, mmk?

I wactched a movie that makes me feel YUCKY ALL OVER! Ok, I’m sure you all want to know what’s up with this. First of all, the image beside this text is NOT from the yucky movie. I’ll explain where that came from later. The movie I’m talking about, oh man, they pulled a big swap on me. I found this movie in the “romance” section of AsianDB.com and decided to download it. It’s called Bungee Jumping of Their Own. Here’s the basic plot. It takes the everpopular romance story of a student and teacher falling in love. Although the teacher has a family and children, the sudent is very young, and all the students and school leaders are agisnt it, love prevails! The professor and the student both “dump” their current relationships and fall for eachother. Ahh, love. How sweet. But, oh yeah, wait a second. One thing I didn’t mention. You know how the AsianDB movie list has a “romance” section? It’s too bad I wasn’t informed that their romance movies don’t have to be about heterosexual romances! That’s right. The professor was a guy. The sudent was a guy. I know, the professor had a wife and kids, the student had a girlfriend! And they left everything behind to go for eachother! Ahhgg! Gag! Yuck! Pffst! Pffst! /spitts on tongue repeatedly/ That was so wrong! I’m here ready for a nice sweet little boy sees girl, boy gets girl, boy loses girl, boy gets girl again and lives happily every after movie. Now don’t get me wrong here. If I’d know what this was about earlier in the movie, I’d have stopped it. But the way they lay it out, it’s in the last 10% of the movie that they reveal what’s been happening all along. With flashbacks to prior moments from slightly different angles, you realize the whole time they’ve been working toward getting together. Vah! I’m sorry, ok, that’s not cool in my book ^_^ I felt violated! And, a quick summary for those who wonder who the girl is on the DVD cover. The student boy is actually supposed to be something like the reincarnated soul of a girlfriend the professor had from his childhood who was run over by a truck. So, technicall it IS a girl. But I don’t care, that’s so wrong =op About the bungee jumping… in the end, they decide that to be together without the world oppressing their “ways”, they stand on a bridge, hold hands, and bungee jump off of it. However, they don’t have a bnugee cord. That’s right, they commit suicide holding hands, and when they die they will be together and able to love eachother! How lovely! So far, this is the ONLY asian movie I’ve seen that turned out like this, and it’s really supid, and I’m very disappointed -_- Afterwords, to lighten the mood back up, I watched Blood: The Last Vampire. I forgot to watch it on halloween ^_^ Oh well, it was good anyway. It’s an awesome action packed movie crammed into only 45 minutes! Crazy huh? The picture in this post; that’s what it’s from. And with that, i’ll make a new paragraph.

Well things are flowing together nicely. I’m somewhat tired. I think I’ll go to sleep earlier tonight. Wow, it’s already twelve. Humm, maybe not as early as I expected. Nonetheless, I’m going to sign off now. I didn’t work on AimPoo over the weekend like I was thinking I would, but that’s ok. I’ll have time later. And, ya’ know, it’s a low priority. Seriously. Ok, well, I’m off. Goodnight!

Ok, so, I had plans for tonight. But /shrug/ they had to be canceled. For the sake of the people who read this blog, I’m not going to go into the details. I’ll just say the whole situation became personally frustrating ^_^; Anyway, so I’m here at home, babysitting (again), and I ask myself “humm, what shall I do?” Then.. the idea came to me. Finish the new version of AimPoo. I quickly put Hannah to bed (early too, I’m so mean!) and sat at my computers. After a few hours of listening to Korean talk radio stations (there is this really hot sounding girl on friday nights hosting the talk shows) I finally finished.

AimPoo Beta 4! A cool little feat in itself. It’s beautiful. It’s simple. It has style. It has complexity. It’s easy to use, and powerful in the hands of any newb. You should check it out, it’s cool. It looke very finished and polished. A sign that I’m getting closer and closer to the public release!

I just compiled my stats for this week. In the last seven days, since November 1’st, and not including the people who will hit my site from this moment until midnight, I’ve gotten 1,120 unique visitors to my site this week =o) This is excluding people who went to kawaiiayu or aimpoo’s site ^_^ It’s big for me. The first week I broke 1,000 unique visitors. I’m happy =oD I know for some people, 1120 is nothing, but my site is still very young and doesn’t have a ton of real good stuff on it, and it’s the most I’ve ever gotten in one week ^_^ I’m so popular online XD

I keep thinking I fix the internet problem, but I keep getting suprised when I find out I didn’t. I have no clue what’s causing it at this point. Some seconds the net works GREAT, and some times it COMPLETELY drops my packets. here’s a quick pinging of my local nameserver (should be fast). check out these results!

See? How much easier can you get. Pop on a Dora the Explorer DVD, add headphones, and presto! Despite the amount of work I have to do tonight, last minute babysitting for a few hours is no problem! =oD This kid is amazing! (she’s Hannah, my sister, 4yrs, adopted, from China, by the way) All you have to do is plop her in front of the TV and she’s good to go for at least 3 and 1/2 hours. Some people call it cold, but I call it genous! bua ha ha ha ha ha ha

Well crap. It’s November already?! Dang, why didn’t anyone tell me?! I have some projects due in school and I guess I knew they were due soon, but it didn’t hit me that I had 5 things due all on one day. I was thinking “I’ll use Wednesday” (tomorrow) to do each individual thing, but I didn’t add up that I’d have to do all 5 things! Jeez! It JUST hit me, 2 minutes ago. I have 2 computer based assignments for U.S. Govornment class due Thursday. I have a Composition II paper (2,000 words) I have to write for Thursday. I have a World Mytholigy paper to write (2,000 words) for Thursday. I have a U.S. Govornment exam to study for Thursday. I have math homework too, but that never takes more than a few minutes. Humm, what to do.

Ok, I’ll play the “scott thing” and stay cool and collected. Let’s assess the situation here. I can look at each item, assign an amount of time it will take, and plan my day accordingly. Here is my first possibility (in order):

Idea 1
WEDNESDAY WORK:
1.) Two computer assignments – 1 hour
2.) Comp II test to study for – 30 minutes
3.) Comp II essasy – 2 hours (including research)
4.) World Myth essay – 3 hours (including research)
5.) U.S. Gov. exam to study for – 4 hours
total: 10 and 1/2 hours ^_^ that’s a lot of time.

Idea 2
TONIGHTS WORK:
1.) Two computer assignments – 1 hour
2.) Comp II test to study for – 30 minutes
3.) Comp II essasy – 2 hours (including research)
tonight’s total: 3 and 1/2 hours

I moved my room around today! yeah! Fo’ real! well, take a lookie. I didn’t do much else ^_^ I was ‘babysitting’ at the time I did, and it actually took a few hours. Despite the fact that all I did was move two desks, it actually took a good 3 hours to do. I set hannah up watching IceAge and Shrek (dvds) and went to work. The far left monitor was turned off in the picture (by accident) but it’s ok, since 80% of the time it will be off. (it’s for viewing live website activity, ftp transfers, and internet connection information) And not only that, the area I opened up I can use to open my window; and when I’m not opening my window, it doubles as a dance floor!

Why’d I move my room around? Well if you were lazy and didn’t read my last post, it’s because I wanted to be able to get to my window. It’s cooling down outside, and I’d like to be able to open it durring the daytime (it’s so hot in here). Before, my desk covered it, and I couldn’t get to it! Also, it made it harder, because through a very stupid situation, my parents forbade me from moving the location of my bed… as dumb as it sounds ^_^;

Want to see more pictures of my new room? Dang! You must have no life =o) Nonetheless, here they are: NOVEMBER 2003 ROOM PICTURES. Enjoy.

A lot of people have been asking “why isn’t AimPoo beta 3 coming out?”. Well, in a quick answer: life. Too many things to do, not enough time (seemingly) for programing. It’ll be done soon enough. It’s on hiatus tonight. We’ll see about tomorrow. My guess is wednesday. Who knows, it’s all good =o) Don’t push me though. I’m quick to anger toward people talking about my coding =op

Well something STUPID just happend that requires my immediate attention. I’d best be off. After cutting-off this blog early, Scott says goodnight.