Archive for October, 2003

yeah, I totally OWNED this guy. I’m going to write about it in a few minutes once I get my sources together. Be sure to check back in a little bit to see what this is all about!

in the meantime:
VISIT HIS WEBSITE!!!!

bua ha ha ha ha ha ha!!!

a full explination is on the way

p.s. – he has no clue yet ^_^ (at the time of this writing)

IF YOU ARE THE GUY IN THE PICTURE, IM ME! SCREEN NAME IS “RTS”

quick overview: he put pictures of “his room” on his website. Well, they were pictures off my room. Not only was he using pics of MY ROOM claiming they were his, but he image-linked them from my site, sucking gobs of bandwidth ^_^ (very large images, the originals were) So, yeah, I got him back. All in good fun.

CLICK HERE TO SEE PICTURES OF MY ROOM

Why hello again. I’m Scott, and you know who you are. I’ve decided that speaking in the third person in these writings is not pointless, but extraneous. The reasons to do it don’t outnumber the possible downfalls that may become from it. So, I’ve decided to once again change my writing style. You’ve seen my flirting with bold and italic fonts in the past week or so, but I think I’m going to try to make some sense of these. I’m going to address titles and topics in bold, and supporting lines in italics. Why? I KNOW most people don’t read all of my blogs. They’re too dang boring! The bold text will show you all the topics I wrote about so you can skip around and read what you want. The italics will summarize my main point so you can tell what it’s about at a glance.

I didn’t do much of anything today. I woke up, did some schoolwork, ate lunch, did some studying, took a break and watched a movie (more on this later), finished the movie, did some more studying, and I just finished. Yeah, I’ve been studying all day =op I don’t want to get a B in a stupid world myth class. Vahh! Don’t get me started.

The movie I watched was A-W-E-S-O-M-E. It’s called “Wonderful Days” (pictured here). It’s a Korean anime that came out very recently. It’s a brand new movie that’s really great. It’s half celldrawn animation and half computer animation. It’s really cool to see how they mix the two these days. It had that Final Fantasy / Titan AE / Heavy Metal feel to it with the surreality of Ghost in the Shell and was alltogether a really good movie. The scenery alone was amazing. The plot was pretty cool, nice twist of story, action, suspense, mystery, intrigue, curiosity, and irony. I was disappointed with two scenes in the movie (mainly the one where the truck crashes into the building) and, in my opinion, the movie as a whole would have been better if they were left out. Nonetheless, this movie kicked some serious butt, and I recommend you check it out. A trailer preview of the movie is available online. Check it out, it’s slick: eng_teaser_trailer_high.wmv Once again, it’s a Korean anime entitled “Wonderful Days”.

I’ve been thinking of remodeling this website a little bit. I love the current layout, look, and feel of the site, but I think the top area(s) could use a little scott-touch. I know, the scott-touch, it’s the cause of fatal disasters. However, hey, I’ve got to try ^_^ I’d really like to design the layout in a way that I can put larger width images in this area of the site without worrying about people with low resolutions getting the deathly horizontal scroll bar. I don’t know where I think I’m going to get the time. Oh well, it’s coming up with the idea that’s the fun part anyway =o)

Tons of people are checking out how hot Scott is! Ok, so the numbers are small compared to other peoples’ sites, but you gotta realize ScottIsHot.com is only a few months old and doesn’t hold anything of great signifigance. But, in it’s 4 month history (doesn’t it seem like longer?) This October blew away the previous months in website hits. Just in the last 29 days of this month I’ve gotten 2149 unique visitors, 4543 total visits (sessions over two minutes and under two hours), and a nice 103,337 files accessed. For some people, these numbers are nothing. For me, they’re pretty cool ^_^ The most any of my old sites got were somewhere around 1500 unique visitors a month. Now I’m over two grand! =o) Pretty cool ‘eh? I linked up to a new person today. Actually, the person isn’t new, the link is. So I linked up to a person’s new link would be the correct way to say it. Check it out! It’s the blue one near the top. Magestyk.com cool.

I was in a conversation a few minutes ago about how I write these blogs. I don’t think I ever wrote about how I write my blogs in my blogs. (weird sentence). But, I’d might as well. Some of you might be able to appreciate the work that goes into each of these posts =o) I don’t go through all these steps every time (if I’m in a hurry) but I try to follow this general guideline when I post:
1.) topic selections – figure out what topics I’m going to hit and write about them, so I don’t deviate into my scott-like rants.
2.) rough draft – I go through and fill out a paragraph or so for each topic I’ve selected. I then arrange the topics to make the best reading pattern.
3.) readover – here, I read my blog posting and make changes to try to make it read fluently. I take out confusing parts, and add extra details to try to clarify fuzzy things. Especially when I talk about myself, it’s easy to say things that could be taken the wrong way, so I have to be careful of this too.
4.) revision – I go over and make sentences better and clearer. I re-write areas that I don’t like, and basically go over the whole thing one more time to make sure it sounds ok.
5.) skimming – I now put this page on preview mode and look at it with the html tags enabled and the images in place. I see if I need to make any last minute changes, and apply them if needed.
6.) post! – I then post the blog for the world to see and enjoy. And, yeah, I know I make a lot of typos I didn’t catch, but hey! That’s me =o)

Interesting, huh?

Lots of people ask me about the truthfullness of my blogs. This is a quite interesting question, because it can take so many meanings. Do the things I write here really happen in my life? Are the thoughts mine? Are the ideas real? Well, yeah, they are. I come here and write about me, my life, my experiences, and my thoughts. Do I lie in my blogs? Sometimes. I usually do it to try to avoid a fight or conflict with someone, or to make someone feel better about something. Usually the lies are subtle details I change to try to catch the eye of the person in mind. Have I toned-down my blogs lately? Yes, I have. You may have noticed it. A few months ago I got royally screwed by a kid reading my blog and taking something I said in a completely wrong way, relaying it to someone else, who relayed it to the parents, who relayed it to MY parents. They freaked from what they heard (which was a far cry from what I wrote) and demanded that I baby them through my whole blog so they could read it all. Naturally (stupidly) I resisted, which ‘confirmed’ to them that their assumptions were true ^_^;; The mess was so bad, you couldn’t believe how much trouble it caused. I was actually banned from blogging for a few months =o) Remember that knighthacker.com “computer help” site? That’s what I made when I wasn’t supposed to blog. I waited a month or so until the heat dissipated from the subject, then I turned it back it a personal site with a blog. However, since then, I’ve been very careful. I have to town down all my posts to try to make them as parent-friendly as I can ^_^; I’ve learned my lesson of writing things very clearly. It wasn’t that what I wrote was bad. The problem was I wrote blog enteries of only a single paragraph or so, so it left a lot of room for interpretation. Here, with long blogs, I can be 100% sure my point gets across clearly =o) The good thing about this toning-down of my blogs is that I couldn’t possibly offend anybody. The bad thing is that I have to distort history, add in fake events, and leave out things that really happened in an attempt to make this blog comfortable for everyone. I’m hurting this ‘journal’ for myself by doing it this way, but I have to remember that although it’s mine, it’s public, and I have to simply accept some of the strings that’re attached by this fact.

Well, I’ve written a novel today. I’d best get outta here. I have a world myth test tomorrow, I really hope I do well ^_^ Goodnight everyone!

It’s amazing how much you can hear when you close your eyes and listen to nothing =o) I sat here for a minute or two, and tried this. At first, I heard nothing. Then, the silent but deafening ring. After that clears though, you start to hear everything. The humm of the fan over my head, the slight vibrating of the tv’s tube, the quiet purr of tireless CPU fans spinning in unison. It’s at times like this, with my eyes closed listening to silence, that I realize I NEED TO GET OFF MY BUTT AND DO SOMETHING DANGIT!

Well today started out pretty nicely. Classes weren’t that bad. Over the weekend, a woman in my English comp. II class called me. She was absent the prior class, and asked me if I had the writing assignment he gave that day, and if I’d be willing to give her the noes I had. I call her a woman because she’s signifigantly older than I, but she is very nice. I know you’re all asking “how did she know your number Scott?” Well, the first day of class, I happened to be sitting next to her, so we traded numbers in case one of us were absent a day, so we could get the information we needed. Anyway, thismorning before class I wrote down the notes of the previous lesson and gave them to her. She thanked me. A few minutes later, she came over to my desk and gave me two free movie cupons. She said she wasn’t going to use them, and she appreciated what I did. How nice ^_^

2 movie passes! wow! cool! That means I can take a girl to a movie for free! Or, most likely, I can go see two movies for free. Oh, the irony.

I feel really stupid, I actually got a bad (B) grade on a math test I took last week. /shrug/ I had a 98% average in this class until now. I feel so stupid. All my mistakes were SO dumb, and mostly on the wording of things (not the ability to do the mathmatical processes, but knowing the names of the different processes) I could do all the math fine and dandy, I didn’t spend any time looking at the titles of what the methods are called ^_^; Oh well, I know now. I just feel like an idiot. grr.

I have a test in World Myth next Thursday. I really want to do well on this test. I think I have the ability to get a very high A on it, which would really help my average in that class. Yet again, I feel so dumb. The two dumbest classes (toward my major) that I’m taking this year are myth and music appreciation. (they’re required. grr.) These 2 classes, the least important ones, I’m getting the worst averages in right now. (ehh, they’re Bs, but it’s the principal!) It’s frustrating & disappointing. I’m not too sure what to do other than spend some more time studying. It will be easier on the upcoming tests however, because I now know how both of the teachers test. Thinking of it gives me that “eww” gut feeling though. I should move on.

I watched a movie today. I was told it was a very good movie. I will admit, it was a very good movie. But I didn’t like it at all. Despite it’s English title, the Korean title best translates as “Letters From Mars”. The name sounds stupid, but it ties in very closely with the plot. (no, they’re not REALLY from mars) Anyway, it was a classic Korean love story that ends in sadness (like so many Korean movies). It started off a little boy and a little girl as very close childhood friends in a very small village. The girl’s parents die, and she ends up moving to Seoul (a large city in South Korea). They meet again 20 years later. The girl has become a very important woman in the business world and has lived in the city for many years and has therefore gained a sense of sophistication. She comes back to find him a simple postman of this small town they grew up in. He’s very nice, loves being around her, but she only stays for a day and goes back to work on Seoul. He goes to Seoul to find her, and finds her, enguaged to a VP of a large company. She tells him never to meet her again. He goes back to his town and does something (that takes weeks of his time) and mails it to her as a goodbye / “I’ll always love you” gift. Before it gets there, the girl’s fiance goes bankrupt and calls off the marrage. She then realizes how perfect the other guy was for her. It is then that she gets the package he sent her, and she tries to find him again. The movie closes with the girl going to his village only to find it’s flooded because a dam was built. He has moved and they will never be able to find eachother. The end.

On another note, the kind emails keep pouring in. I think you all for your support, and I am very glad to know that people out there care =o) The whole situation (addressed in the prebious blogs) is starting to sink in well, and it’s not so sad anymore. I’m really happy for the time I was able to share with this person, and I’ve decided to write her family an anonymous letter about their daughter. I hope it will bring some comfort to them ^_^

Well, with that, I’d say things are wrapped up pretty well. I’m going to see about making some casual conversation tonight on IM, but I don’t think I’ll talk to many people. I am very tired and think I am going to go to bed soon. Yes, I know, new record for me: 9:26pm

Goodnight everyone. And thanks for your kindness =oD

Today feels so strange to me. I didn’t really use much of the comptuer at all. (I plugged my monitors back in tonight when some people came over I’m making wedding pamphlets for). The day seems long and strung out. I can pinpoint specific events and the times they occurred. It’s very different, for some reason. I had no idea that not using the computer for a single day would effect my outlook on the day so much.
Today was good though =o) I’d really like to thank the people who sent me encouraging emails. They were really nice ^_^ It’s funny, normally I’ll get 10-20 comments on every post I write. The ones over a page long I get even more. But only one person commented on the last post. I can understand I guess, it was kindof awkward… “what do you say to that?” I understand. I know I said this already, but the emails were really nice. Thanks =oD

Things’re moving along pretty good. I think I’m going to write a letter to that girl’s family. I never met her parents and only saw her sister once, which feels really strange, consitering I felt I knew her so well. I know none of her family reads this website. I’m unsure if I should make the letter signed by me, or anonymous. I don’t really want them coming to me with questions.. I think that’d be really hard on both of us. Their family must be going through a lot right now… I can only imagine

I’m doing pretty well though Today I got a lot of things done that were very… relaxingly enjoyful. I cleaned my room. I moved some stuff around. I played with my sister’s chalkboard and drew out the schematics of AimPoo’s inner-workings =o) My sister had a friend came over, and I took ‘em both to a resturaunt. Then, in the parking lot, they decided that they wanted to go to 7-eleven instead. So, we went to 7-eleven and then went home. (women). We watched a movie “Oh! Happy Day” (Korean) and it was a really stupid/funny comedy that sure lightened my mood. After that I got in a few hours of studying and I feel pretty good about my weaker subjects now. I took the day pretty easy and it went by very nicely.

Reflecting back on yesterday… wow. It was a crazy day, and early night had a little awkward situation of it’s own. Then, once it was slowly resolving, I got home and got “the news” and it really hit at a bad time. I think I’ll casually use my computer for a few minutes to write my blog here and there for a while. I think the time I’m spending away from it is/will be good for me.

I’m going to work tomorrow morning, probably working a full day, coming home, studying for some stuff, and then going to sleep. I doubt I’ll be writing a blog tomorrow, so this one counts for two ^_^

Oh yeah, I got some emails about this subject, so I figure I’d talk about it briefly. When I say I’m not using the computer, I don’t mean it from an absolute point. For schoolwork, work work, or little things here and there, I find myself using my notebook. However, what I am not doing is surfing websites or “chatting” with people or working on any of my “projects”. (97% of my computer use regurlarly, especially the last one). Today, I did stop and have a few minutes to talk with Zero (QIO) and get the scoop on the things I’ve missed.

While I’m at the subject, I want to bring to attention that another person hacked a 3char with AimPoo! He asked to remain anonymous at the moment, but in 72 hours I’ll reveal his screen name, the name he hacked, and the password he used to get it. The funny thing is that this guy had a fairly creative password and hacked a name in his first 2 hours of running AimPoo! And on top of that, he’s a total stranger. =o,

Well, I think I’ve addressed all the important and unimportant events of the day. You can look forward to a bright and sunny Scott in a few days ^_^ I’m gonna rest for a while still. Maybe one more day, maybe a few, I don’t know. It’ll work out though, and I’m not going to try to rush things. I think it’s working out pretty well. The girl that died? Yeah, it really stinks, but it’s not that bad when you look at it with a fresh mind =o)

Life works weirdly, but life works out, if you work it out with life.

I’m outta here. Goodnight all. (no computer, why not sleep?) –Scott

afterthought: I saw a trailer that was really cool. The music made it really good. If you’re bored, you should check it out. It was… really beautiful deepdive.avi (it’s family-friendly). I’d love to hear your thoughts on it. (it’s a trailer for a game. I know nothing about gaming. I just thought the trailer was very nice)

the picture on top was a really amazing (to me) picture i happened to find while deviating.

Ok this is a weird post, I started writing it, then deleted it, then came back later and decided to write. Forget the third person crap -_- I have decided that I really need to get some stuff sorted out and I’m not going to use my computers for a while. Something bad happened a few days ago I just found out about now, and it’s really bothering me. I want some time to clear it up in my head. It may be a day, it may be as long as a week, I don’t know. I’m unplugging my monitors. I need to get away for a while.

Ok, what’s up Scott? Well, I dont want to sound stupid or all dumb about it so I’m just gonna come right on out with it and think what you want, I don’t care. I just got a confirmation that one of my closest friends (a girl) is no longer with us. She died a few days back; some people told me, I didn’t believe it… but now it’s true. So, yeah, I’m having a hard time with this thing. I just need a few days to let my mind reboot. It’ll be good for me.

While I’m gone, I left my good friend Zero in command. He doesn’t know why I’m leaving yet (he’ll know once I leave and he reads this blog). HE IS ON THE SCREEN NAME QIO! YES, QIO IS MY SCREEN NAME. I AM LETTING HIM USE IT. HE CAN HELP YOU WITH TECH-SUPPORT / REGISTRATION WITH AIMPOO. AND IF YOU’RE A GIRL, KNOW HE’S SINGLE ( he’s gonna kill me for that! ^_^ ) Anyway, he’s the one that helped me writing AimPoo and he can probably help ya’ through your problems. If you want to talk to him, please be nice. I know a lof of you can be really mean toward me sometimes, and I’m OK at taking it, but please don’t dump your rage on this guy. If you have a problem with me, take it up with me via email.

And Zero, thanks a lot for watching the fort. I need this time. I really appreciate what you’re doin’. But then again, with me announcing to all the women website readers that a nice, smart, single guy is on the screen name QIO you’ll be thanking me in a few days

Ok, well, I’d best be off. I’m not going to be watching the comments board for this post so please try to keep it nice, swearing and saying discusting things only makes you look stupid.

If you want to contact me, you can email me KnightHacker@cfl.rr.com . Messages left at RTS’s away message might be deleted. Don’t forget you can contact QIO (zero) if you need anything.

Also, if you’re one of the the few that sees me in person, please don’t bring up this subject. I don’t really want to talk about it now… maybe in a few weeks… but not now. I’m sure you understand. thanks.

Well, I guess I’m off. /sigh/ I’m going to go to sleep. I feel yuck.

I decided to put up a song. It’s not really in memory of.. well I guess it is.. I don’t know, it’s just something I feel I should do. Mai Kuraki – The Rose. (It’s half Japanese, half English) Enjoy.