Archive for March, 2003

I don’t have much time so I’ll try to make this quick. First off all of my work involving computers has been put on hiatus for undisclosed reasons. With hours in my room eqipped with only a cd player, paper, razor blades, and glue, I spent about 5 hours and made this 1/37 scale model of the cassini spacecraft launched in late ‘97. I made it completely out of computer paper ^_^

note: I’m going to see about adding the COMMENTS button below each of my daily posts. These are for everyone to click on and anyone can post. Use them to give me feedback on some of my news =o) Let me know what you think, if its a good idea, or if it stinks!

Its been a good hour since my last post ^_^; I wanted to give ya an update. I rotated out the banner (above) again, its this girl that I’ve seen here and there forever and collected her pictures, but I have no idea who it is. It’s the weirdest thing, they pop up in unlikely places, but they’re so cool. I love her eyes/nose though you can’t really see how they look in that picture (want to keep under 200px vert) I have something else that happened I forgot to write about. It’s a long story so I’m going to try to keep it short. The past few days, weeks, months… /sigh/ I keep getting the steriotypical anime comments from people and my parents. It’s hard to expect anyone to know anything about something they’ve never experienced, but its funny to watch people try to diss these things they know nothing about ^_^ Certain things, like this, I should add to my peeves list =o, Not to mention the forever mistaken swapping of anime with ‘cartoons’, then again, to those who have never seen true anime, its all it is, cartoons. What can one say when somone talks about how immature it is? I’ve been caught with a loss of words on the subject =o, I tried to descrive it and used a term “with a mature plot” and the words “not for children” etc etc but that usually has strange effects ^_^; My dad said a “mature cartoon” is an oximoron. To make a long story short, a few days ago it was raining outside, everyone was bored, I was in my room and so was my sister (using one of my laptops) and my dad walks in and my sister started talking about the posters on my walls and suddenly the topic of anime arose. I didn’t say a whole lot, but at the end my dad said “hey I’m not doin’ anything why dont you show me one of these movies you always talk about”… /glup/ there are so many, what do I pick? what’m I trying to convey? Do I pick something I think he’ll like? Do I pick something to disprove the “anime is immature” comments? Do I grab Ghost in the Shell? Knockin’ on Heaven’s door? My neighbor Toroto?!? I had a little panic there. I ended up picking Grave of the Fireflies =o, I’m not sure why. It has a nice plot, flows consistantly, its only 2 hours long, no excessive language or other bad stuff. I figured what the heck and fired it up. I’m not sure what he thinks of it – he got knida quiet through the movie – I dont think he likes it. Then again, I never thought he’d like it. I wasn’t trying to make him like anime, I wanted to dispel that “anime is cartoons” viewpoint and I think I may have done so a small amount. I dont know why I feel I have to prove something, or what I think will happen if I do, but I guess these things will slowly unwravel over time. I have personal preferences, likes and dislikes, and I need to stop obsessively replaying every little insult people give the things I hold dear… whispering in your ear… la la la /sings to lain/ I should have played Serial Experiments Lain (it’d COMPELTELY blow away that anime is kiddie stuff idea) but I dont think my dad could watch a 6 hour movie. Much less subtitled ^_^ (you should have heard the tone of voice when I started Grave of the Fireflies: “I dont have to read subtitles through the entire movie do I?”) /dies/ haha allright well I’m outta here –later

whoa that’s weird… we go from almost daily posts to a 10 day gap. What does this mean? In the last 10 days almost NOTHING interesting has happened to me. Do I write only about the things that happen in my life that’re interesting? Well if I did, this would be an empty page. Let’s see.. /thinks/ a few days ago I got the final results on that noip submission I made. Not only is it on thier website, it’s on the top of the list! And yesterday morning I checked my inbox and found my prize of $65.90!! That’s pretty cool =o) I’m considering writing more, but I’ll give them a few months to space it out. You can see my post at http://www.no-ip.com/tips.php(the one by scott harden). change of subject… oh yeah, a note. Lots of you may comment on my ‘peev’ of gramatical errors and point out the condition of this weblog. “It’s full of spelling errors, empty capitolization, and little punctuation”. For your information, I’m not writing a novel, or a research paper, this is a private log of random things that happen in my life. I keep this so in the future I can look back and read about my life’s past perspectives on events… it puts things in perspective. I don’t care much about spelling or capitolization, all that matters is the general ideas that’re conveyed. And btw those are technical errors – gramtically I’m usually on target ^_^ Basically that whole chuk of text means “do NOT nag me about my website containing unprofessional technical writing errors”, thanks. I had a track meet today. I’m track meat at a track meet.. ok that was lame. Anyway some interesting things happened. First off, a girl on another team chucked a lewgie (wad of spit) on the ground w/ an audible “puhh” and it landed right on my shoe ^_^; she looked at me and covered her mouth and said ohhh #@$% and her eyes got SO wide I died laughing. I’m like “naw its ok dont worry about it” haha she thought I was gonna hit her or something. Yeah it was no problem, just asked her for her phone number and the number of three of her friends and it ended allright. (that was a joke, btw). Later that day after telling the story to soemoen he turned around and said to the group “That’s the closest he’s gotten to a kiss” =op A friend brought me an old laptop – I’m getting a cpu/monitor on thursday – and another cpu/monitor on saturday. I really must sound stupid acking EVERYBODY for old computer hardware but I really do use this stuff and learn a lot from it, and I figure if I ask EVERYONE I meet, I can keep getting a slow flow of hardware to play with. All pawns in my plans for total world domaination. Anyway, my friend let me listened to his cd player at the meet and I heard this song that stuck in my head all night X_x It sounded a lot like my favorite english band (Splashdown). I like the style of music, and it’s what I search for mostly in american/japanese music. Small group of insturments and a female singer ^_^ dark or conservitively heavy background music with a soft female voice =o) I love splashdown for just that. They’re pretty darn gothic but I love the sounds. Misia (mee-shah) is my favorite japanese singer – I love her voice. Hey did I write here about the misia I met in ‘real life’? Might as well =o, A few weeks ago when I was taking a SAT I was standing in line next to a girl and we started talking and the line took FOREVER to move so we eneded up killing time talking about random stuff. She turned out to be pretty cool, and I met her at a SAT? crazy. She’s my age (a little younger) and my grade. But you wanna know the coolest thing? She (not me!) started talking about computers. Wanna know whats even cooler? She uses linux ^_^ Don’t get my wrong, she’s not been using it forever and she still has much to learn (as do I) but I mean, what’re the odds? For you who are wondering, she uses Slackware. Pretty easy and fast to install, and really light. She talked about trying gentoo once but she couldn’t get step 12 to work (I gotta look up what step 12 is hehe) I gave her my IM name but she litereally never uses IM, she got on once to message me, and that was it. We talk here and there through email, but she normally hangs out in my irc server. It’s public, anyone can join (nibjb.sytes.net:6667, #buy-me-bsd) Her tag at the moment is Dragon, and she’s cool ^_^ Because of this posting I’m sure random people will talk to her, but it doesn’t matter. Just don’t be mean, or you’ll have to face the wrath of the admins. Allright I went on too long in this blog and said WAY too much about that girl haha – dont breathe too much into it – just a friend =o, And with that I’m outta here. (have some work to do) –out–

Woohoo! My system’s back up. I reformatted my main workstation (the one with five monitors) and started loading gentoo on it a few days ago. I say I started it a few days ago, because it took three days at a command line before the system, kernel, and window manager compile from thier sources. After that I loaded up a ‘nix version of the direct connect client (for illegal file downloading etc) and found there’s a really nice one that’s even a gentoo port (qt-dcgui, NOT dc-gui). It uses kde libs (stable on my system, gnome is iffy) and is pretty powerful. I got sound working with alsa (crystal clear with alsa, btw), video playback is beautiful, and I’m compiling arson (cd burner) now that my scsi emulation works as of 20 minutes ago. I’m posting this while it’s compiling =o) As you’ve noticed I changed the top banner again. Take a look at… Electra… /sighs/.. she’s so cool! ^_^ And that scene right there, see? She just killed her boyfriend, so she’s available! woohoo!!! Also I’ve updated the Mp3 on the top right. I dont know why I put that there, but hey, I figure it’ll keep people entertained. In the last week 8 people downloaded my old song =o, If one person likes it, then its worth it. In case you’ve been in a coma for the last 7 years, Mp3s are audio files =op Ok well arson just installed, I can’t wait to burn this cd that I… err… akk I g2g to track. I’ll post again soon =o, later!

Pretty much absolutely nothing interesting has happened the last few days. I was just poking around my website and reading slashdot when I remembered “oh yeah, how much time to I have left until knighthacker.com expires?” The story behind it is that a friend bought it for me as a gift, however he picked the registrar and in all reality, it stinks. It wasn’t that bad until a month or two ago, randomly its dns servers just stop working. I fixed this by using my own DNS servers, but, still something at my registrar dies randomly because every once and a while for a few hours no one can get to my site and no one can even ping the registrar. /dies/ I have until late March with this company, then it’ll expire and I can register the name with a new company! Since I have a dynamic IP (well, its really static, but I’m switching isps so much it’s practically dynamic) I use noip’s services. I’m sure you’ve seen it in action, nibjb.sytes.net is automatically replaced with my current ip address. Pretty spiffy huh? I decided to hop over to no-ip.com and I found that you can buy domain name through them where they integrate the noip service right in the domain name, talk about easy! I’m considering going for it. Though it’s 24$ a year… ouch! It’s not that it’s outrageously expensive, it’s that I dont wanna spend money on something like that ^_^ While poking around the no-ip website, I saw thier tips section, and at the very very very bottom, in small text, it said “submit your own tip! If chosen, you will recieve a free year of noip+ service”. /looks left/… /looks right/… /scratches chin/… /evil laugh/… I can do this! It’d be so awesome to win and get a free domain name for a year! Not only would it be cool to tell and show people, but I really like writing tutorials for some reason. The sick desparation can be heard in my laugh. Anyway, if I’m going to write a tutorial, what’d I write it about? /thinks/ I know! There are no tutorials there on how to install and configure the linux client.. bingo! I’ll make a tutorial on that. /grins/ Now let’s see… for this tutorial I’ll need to install it myself so I know what I’m doing. To make a long story short, i’ll tell the rest of this article past tense. I downloaded, extracted, configured, and installed the noip client and figured it out pretty well. I uninstalled everything and decided to install it taking screenshots of the console every step of the way. Once I did this I opened the screenshots in gimp and, well, they looked discusting. I was using the fluxbox window manager and the windows were, well, somewhat boring. All the sudden I saw white flashes of light and before my eyes flashed screenshots I saw from kde-look.org and I realized, right then, I’d have to install KDE just so I could have pretty clicky thingies and window thingamabobs. I reluctatntly (in fear of addiction) installed the base kde package binaries from my gentoo cd (who has 10 hours to wait while kde compiles) and once launched, I sank in my chair as a huge grin came over my face. “It’s so beautiful!!” Once I got a window decoration that I thought would look nice in console screenshots on a white background, I was ready to go. I figured since it was fairly simple to install the noip client on linux, I’m aiming toward linux newbies, so I can spend time writing fluff that makes sense. When it was all said and done, I had screenshots, and they looked NICE. I popped ‘em in gimp and cropped ‘em down and highlighted areas that needed attention. I then got my laptop and walked over and sat in my leet couch. (Yeah, I have a 1337 couch) I typed away until I finished the darn thing, then I decide to blink a few times, since my eyes were plastered open the entire time X_x Once I fnished, I decided to take a break for a while to let my mind clear. I watched the NGE movie (End of Evangelion) and then proof-read my article and made lots of changes. I then decided to show some friends, but strangely NO one gave me ANY comments of things to change. Last night in bed I got my laptop and read it again, changing small things here and there. I think I’m about ready to zip it and submit it. I know two perfect ‘newbs’ using RedHat linux that I can test my tutorial on. I sure hope I get some comments on it, because I wanna submit this! Yeah, I know i’ll probably get laughed at by the people there, but who knows, maybe it’ll work out? Oh well, we’ll see. If you’d like to read the article as it stands at the current moment in time, it’s located at ./noip/. Any comments are welcome and appreciated. I’ll keep ya’ updated on what happens! /crosses fingers/

well that was fun. I just ‘encrypted’ an old chunk of my blog because it was causing ‘problems’ and I figure, if anyone cares enough to read it, they can figure out how to decrypt it. Basically, that keeps everyone who I dont reading it from reading it ^_^ for the rest of you, I’ll make it easier yet, I just ran a base64 conversion over a huge ascii string, so just reverse that process (with say, base64) and it’ll look right as rain. Or, if you have no idea what that means, get out a paper and pencil and start doing some major work. How long do you think that’d take? It’d take at leat a page for every ten letters, and there are a good 2k letters, so I’d say about 200 pages of notebork paper, that’s around three days or so. Oh well, it works. /sigh/ sad I have to do it but oh well, it’ll work out in time. Mp3 link is up on the right there, see it? Yeah, I think a total of 4 people today downloaded that song X_x I get so few hits these days, I was delisted from google and my 200 hits a day dropped to about 20, but it doesn’t matter, I write this for myself anyway. It’s just in a form people can read if they’d care to. I had plans for this site… now they’re shot… I think it’ll just stay like this for a while. Plain, simple, easy, just for recording memories. For those of you who don’t know I’ve kept a log like this since I was around 12. It got choppy (weeks and weeks went by without adding) when i was 14, but in general it was all there. It was so fun to look back and see what was happening in my life, what I liked, and what made me really really sad, seing these things seemed to help me a lot to put everything in perspective about the present. Since “that crash” you can read about in post 1, That long text file was lost… I had one cd backup of it, but it was in a drawer where something heavy was placed on top of it and it skidded on something and took the cd media right off /sigh/ threre goes a lost chapter of my life… But it’s not all lost. I have records of ranom events, here /points to head/, but it’s just nice to read details about yourself sometimes =o) ok well this post ran long I’m outta here.

sorry, I just had to sneeze. I’m not sure what I’m going to say today. There are so many things I want to say, so many things I can’t say, and so many things I want to write but could never pull myself to doing it. I guess first I’ll start off by saying that I’m not going to encrypt any chunk of my blog. Instead, I’m going to simply add to my blog pretty and happy little things about what goes on, and remain keeping a text log about thoughts I have about different things. That way no one’s toes are stepped on, no one gets offended, and no one will make fun of the things I try to seriously write. Speaking of writing seriously, I can get nothing done with this stupid neon genesis evangelion anime girls song playing in the background /sends kill signals to xmms/. I swear, if I hear one more remix of that cruel angel thesis, I’m going to vomit on my keyboard. Well… maybe not that, I just had to buy a new keyboard since I spilled vanilla coke in my last one… not that it was any good, I needed to change it anyway. I took the keys off it to make it a dvorak and small things were living inside it. No joke. And just think, I type away on this while eating goldfish… mmmmm…. back to business. Like the new site layout? It looks pretty spiffy huh? I think it looks ported. Ya’ see, that’s my new word. When something is REALLY sweet, cool, phat, amazing, or tight, I use ‘ported’. Pretty leet huh? anyway, I’ve decided aginst encrypting this weblog. I wanted a way that everybody could read it except a few people who might be affected by it. Encryption with a password is great, but passwords are cast everywhere to every individual person arehard to handle. Why a diff pw for everyone? Well if someone I know loggs in, I’d be able to tell who gave them thier password and mythodically trace thier location and find where they sleep and slay them in the night. Actually I wouldn’t do that, it’d just be easier to break thier video card from over the internet. mua ha ha ha… yeah… well that wouldn’t work because what if someone just copied/pasted the decrypted weblog into an email or IM? I can monitor email comign in and going out, and IMs back and forth, but they could get creative… anyway, that’s out. So, here I am yet again, speaking a half real half hidden… blog. But it doesn’t matter, this is just a PR page anyway, while anything I want to remember is kept in “the text file” /laughs evily/.. yeah I think these 5 monitors are getting to my head. It’s great! I get an even tan while I check my mail. Not only that, but people give me the craziest comments I just have to laugh it. Not that it matters though, the monitors, the comments, the people, they’re all just pawns in my plans for total world domination. At the moment I’m playing with a software companies cd case design while using gimp at the same time to make a few new pictures for the banner of this site to be rotated randomly. Oh yeah! That reminds me! I need to put up those mp3 links for song downloads so people can listen to cool music for no logical reason! Ok that’ll be my goal tonight, signing off, with nothing more to say (not like i said anything up there /points/) I’m outta here.

sunshine, light summer breeze, I can feal the wind on my cheeks, afraid to open my eyes for the feeling might pass and I might awake in a place far from here, arms spread, feeling the light touch of soft grass, breathing softly, listening to the sounds, hearing nothing and loving it, being away from life and basking in it, calmness, surreal tranquilty, peace. finally. peace.