Archive for February, 2003

undefined posted on 02/28/03
whisper in my ear it is not happening

cd /usr/ports/life/mind posted on 02/27/03
make distclean
make reinstall

null posted on 02/26/03
for one hour, make me alone

(x/0)==NaN posted on 02/25/03
I find it discusting that some people think if they just ignore something it will go away.

division by zero posted on 02/24/03
I have chosen to remain silent for a few days. I dont want people to know what is going on in my life at the moment. In time it will be revealed. In the mean time, it’s hard, every time something bad happens, I think of Jeff… still… don’t know why. Don’t talk to me.

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…long, boring, uneventful, unproductive, and latent. These are the words that descrive my life at the moment =o, nothing new, nothing fun, nothing exciting, just… nothing. I really need to finish my irc server. It’s at a friends house because we’re making a case for it… /sigh/ I need to buy some simple tools I feel so useless. I have to ask people to let me borrow or go to thier house to use tools -_- …maybe if I had money I could actually buy the basic things I need. But then again, that’s just an excuse. I am sure I can make money… somehow. Too bad I wont be able to have a summer job /sigh/ stupid classes =op I’m not going to be able to take nightclasses with this stuff too -_- oh well at least I’ll never have to go to highschool again! woohoo! I’m most likely going to “dual enroll” my 12′th grade with a college near me… but ALL my classes would be at the college and I wouldn’t take any anywhere else =o) Plus, the state’d pay for 100% of it! woohoo! but that still means zero money -_- oh well money can’t buy you everything. It just buys you most everything XD

Life seems so strange lately. Time feels like its slowing down. Things that take forever are over in an instant. Those are conflicting statements huh? That’s exactly how I feel. I have so many things I know and want to do and so many things I yearn and desire to try and so many things I relize and regret I have to do and so many things I wish i could do. I am trying to level out priorities at the moment. I don’t have time for everything anymore. This website made the priorities list… as entry #459.32b I know I haven’t added to this news in forever, so I decided to now. I’m in bed, I was almost asleep, I started thinking about all the poor children unable to read about my life lately, so I decided to reach (and man, that was a lot of work lifting my arm) and grab my laptop on my desk and turn over in bed so I could see it. None the less, here I am. I really like my laptop now ^_^ It’s sooo sweet. This baby’s a beast. Though it currently dual boots Linux with Windows (2k) it’s soon to be a thing of the past. For the Linux partition(s) I’ve decided to try my fingers on Gentoo. So far I’ve been really impressed with it. It’s not like most of ther linux distributions. This one isn’t just a cd you boot with and install from a menu. You actually use it as more of a bootable tools disk. It’s just enough to get you connected to the internet so you can download the sources and kernel sources then compile them yourself. I have it set up running FluxBox with audio working, cd burning working, DVD working, video overlay working, internet working, smbfs, etc etc. I also successfully got Dreamweaver MX working in wine. I had to jump through a few hoops, but it turns out wine developers write linux-bias code and used some linux-only api calls that didn’t allow certain applications to emulate in FreeBSD =op Oh yeah, TV-out works too on my laptop =o) this one KILLER machine ladies and… more ladies ^_^ Ok I need to sleep. I’m taking the ACT tomorrow. ‘moutta here