I’m… I’m sorry, I haven’t posted in forever. If its not one thing, it’s another. /sigh/ I’m just making up excuses. I always have something that I feel I need to get working before I can do something else. FTP to this website STILL doesn’t work correctly for people who are behind a firewall and I know it has to do with my router blocking packets. My main computer is pretty stable now, that’s good. Three monitors I’ll upload a screenshot soon. I’m mainly working on my laptop now, just whiped the hard drive clean and started over. Gave 5 gigs to windows 2000 professional and 15 gigs to FreeBSD. I still haven’t made content for this site =o, It’s sad. I’ll be able to do it soon. Don’t worry. My tagboard script i wrote forever ago is getting SLIGHTLY congested XD I’ll also have to see about redoing this news script. It’s not quite what I want. Heck, I want to redo this whole website… but… It’s so much work :tired:

…about the content of my postings… I find myself posting less because (I think) I’m not able to freely post here. Lots of people I know personally (adults) would be… worried (best word I could think of) if they read what really happens in the life of Scott. Heh, wouldn’t want to stir up anything bad. Right now… people treat my like a normal person and I am able to slowly drift through people without them paying me much attention. If they read my other blog (the REAL blog) I’m afraid that they’d try to take me to different psychiatrists… after they get over thier heart attacks I’m thinking of ditching KnightHacker.com – what do you think? I might start new… brand new… and keep it TRUELY secret from anybody who might be offended by its content. Actually thats not correctly stated… thinks I’d be offended by thier responces if they read my website ^_^; and why I say “by its content” I purely mean what I write. No, I’m not contemplating launching a porn site haha. Ok I’m still setting up aps on my laptop and it looks like samba just finished installing. I should be up on it in a few hours. –phonecall– back now, well, forget that idea -_- I get to help out at a track meet today. haray. It’s saturday isn’t it? I hope I dont have to run. I can’t believe I’m locked into another year of this, I thought it was over last year /sigh/ when they said “it’s over”. Baka-Scott. I think a new paragraph should start.

I decided to look over some of the stored blogs from the past… you know, I lost all of my blogs from before June 16′th 2000. Its strange… I can glance at these and remember such… emotion, from different periods of my life. And they come and go, in big clumps that are about a month and 1/2. happy, lonely, sad, lonely, unsure, lonely, relieved, lonely, resting, lonely, stressed, lonely, depressed, lonely, happy, loneny… heh, it kinda fluxbox… i did not just type fluxbox It fluctuates from one thing, to lonely, and back. I guess lonely is a pretty common thing. I mean, think about it. It isn’t happy. It isn’t really sad. It’s just… its differnt, ya’ know? Something I noticed is that it was always an event that made it go from something to lonely. It doesn’t seem to shift there without reason. Something takes me from where I am and sticks me back at lonely… a movie, time with someone, a party, something someone said to me that stung, a track team, etc. Nothing however takes me from lonely to another feeling. It’s like I slowly crawl back up =o, Kinda strange what you learn about yourself when you read what you thought in the past. Ok well much to my discust I must leave. I’ll be back… no idea when. Hope your day goes well =o\ I’m out.